逞强

再强的人也是又脆弱的一面。虽然希望永远都是坚强，可是有时候还是会遇到不如意的事。需要的是一份关心和理解。

Heart to heart conversation

Do u all have a heart to heart conversation?

Yes, I had. Share a little bit secret and feelings. Felt not lonely and not so bad after that. Perhaps felt better. Sometimes it is just something that ppl can't see but they assume they know. But u won't know what is that until u heard about that.

虽然遇到比别人多的挫折，挑战和困难，可是庆幸又遇到贵人，至少有一份安慰。

This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer - Slow Dance‏

SLow Dance 慢舞


This is a poem 這一首詩
written by a teenager with cancer. 是由一位罹患癌症的青少年所寫的



She wants to see how many 他想知道
people get her poem. 有多少人會讀到這首詩



It is quite the poem. Please pass it on. 這是首頗詩意的詩，請傳閱



This
poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a
New York
Hospital
這首詩是由一位癌症末期的少女在紐約醫院所寫的


It was sent
by

a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement
AFTER THE POEM.
這首詩是由一位醫生所傳的 – 請務必閱讀在詩之後的說明。



SLOW DANCE 慢舞

Have you ever你是否曾經
watched kids 看過孩子

On a merry-go-round? 玩旋轉木馬?

Or listened to 或傾聽
the rain大雨

Slapping on the ground? 打落在地上的聲音?

Ever followed a 曾經追著
butterfly's erratic flight?飄乎不定地飛著的蝴蝶?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading 或凝視著太陽在夜色中
night? 漸漸褪色?

You better slow down. 你最好慢下你的腳步

Don't dance so不要舞的太快
fast

Time is short. 時間短暫

The music won't音樂不會
last永不停止



Do you run through each day你是否用飛的

On the 度過
fly? 每一天

When you ask How are you?當你問自己”你好嗎”?

Do you hear the 你有聽到
reply?回答嗎?

When the day is done當一天結束的時候，

Do you lie in your bed 你是否躺在床上

With the next hundred chores仍是滿腦袋思考著

Running through
your head? 上百件例行工作事項?

You'd better slow down 妳最好慢下來

Don't dance so不要舞的
fast這樣快

Time is short.時間短暫

The music won't音樂不會
last永不停止



Ever told your child, 是否曾經告訴你的孩子

We'll do it 我們留到
tomorrow?明天再做?

And in your haste, 而在你的匆忙之中

Not see his sorrow?沒看到他的悲傷?

Ever lost touch是否曾因沒有聯繫,

Let a good而失去
friendship die很好的友誼?

Cause you never had time 就因為你總是沒有時間

To call and say,'Hi'撥個電話說聲”嗨”

You'd better slow down. 你最好慢下腳步

Don't dance不要舞得
so fast.太快

Time is short.時間短暫

The music won't音樂不會
last永不停止



When you run so fast to get somewhere當你急著快點到達某處的時候

You 你
miss half the fun of getting there.也錯過了途中一半的樂趣

When you worry and hurry當你憂心並急著
through your day,度過你的日子

It is like an unopened gift... 像是一件未開的禮物

Thrown away 就這樣被丟棄 .

Life is not a 生命不是在
race比賽

Do take it slower 確實的慢下來

Hear the 聽聽
music音樂

Before the song is over. 在音樂結束之前。

Trapped In Lift ??‏

What to do when you are trapped in a lift ???

We never know when and where accidents will happen to us OR people around us. Read on and hope this piece of information may help any of us when things do happen to yourself, our friends and our loved ones.
One day, while in a lift, it suddenly broke down and it was falling from level 13 at a fast speed. Fortunately, I remembered watching a TV program that taught you must quickly press all the buttons for all the levels.
Finally, the lift stopped at the 5th level.
When you are facing life and death situations, whatever decisions or actions you make decides your survival.
If you are caught in a lift breakdown, first thought in mind may be 'waiting to die'...
But after reading below, things will definitely be different the next time you are caught in a lift.
First - Quickly press all the different levels of buttons in the lift.
When the emergency electricity supply is being activated, it will stop the lift from falling further.
Second - Hold on tight to the handle (if there is any).. It is to support your position and prevent you from falling or getting hurt when you lost your balance.
Third - Lean your back and head against the wall forming a straight line.
Leaning against the wall is to use it as a support for your back/spine as protection.
Fourth - Bend your knees
Ligament is a flexible, connective tissue. Thus, the impact of fractured bones will be minimised during fall.

Why worry

There are only two things in life to worry about:

Whether you are well
or whether you are sick.





If you are well,
then there is nothing to worry about.





But if you are sick,
there are only two things to worry about:







Whether you are going to get well
or whether you are going to die.


If you get well,
then there is nothing to worry about.







But if you die,
there are only two things to worry about:





Whether you are going to go to heaven
or whether you are going to go to hell.





If you go to heaven,
then you have nothing to worry about.







But if you go to hell,
you'll be so busy shaking hands with all your friends,
that you won't have time to worry!



So, Why Worry?







Be Happy

爱玩的我

I bought it

Christmas

Forget how I celebrated my Christmas last year. This year I went to 1u during Christmas. It was so crowded with people. Leg felt so pain because of the long distance and time walking around. Must admit that 1u is very big. Perhaps one thing I felt so shocked is the parking fees for weekends and public holiday are more cheaper than weekdays.

真相的背后

I admit I quite emo
probably is I think too much
but not everything can judge by appearance
maybe there are something behind it which people can't see it

I thought I am the one who are more understanding
but now I think I am not
Maybe what I did didn't make me become more understanding
Maybe is my fault
But can't blame all is my fault
Without telling, I won't know more or understand more
Trying hard to know more or understand more
But it seems like nothing changes
Is my wrong or I think too much?
Never know what is the answer

Questions that i think before
who cares me?
who really understand me?
It not really important to know the answer
but now only I know happiness is so important.

Don't worry
I not feeling sad when wrote this post
Just want to say thank you so much

How to get through life

I read this e-mail yesterday. It was an e-mail from my friends which I think is suitable to share with u all.

Sleep as much as u can...

Read books that u enjoy...

Play with simple things...

Do whatever u want-whenever u want...

Look for affection when u need it...

Get serious once in a while...

Forget about diets...

Show some affection...

Get angry once in a while...

Change your looks...

Above all, be happy
regardless of what
your challenges maybe...
have a great life.

May your troubles be less,
your blessings more,
and may nothing but happiness come through your door.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat u right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If u get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. Friends are like balloons, once u let go them, u can't get them back. So I'm gonna tie u in my heart so that i never lose u.

2511

Wish my dearest cousin happy birthday. May all your wishes come true.

Wish everyone merry christmas. hope u all have a nice day.

终于体会到

终于体会到那种感觉。说真的，实在无法形容。

1 day before

Wish all pmr students can get good result.

承诺

承诺都是无法相信的。

2212

祝大家冬至快乐。

体谅

An e-mail which is meaningful from my friend.

FW: 體諒,很有意思的文章.看过后要在你人生不断提醒自己:你一直再扮演不同的角色,要站在不同的角度欣赏风景,你会发现不一样的天空.

事情發生在美國的一所大學。

在快下課時教授對同學們說 :' 我和大家做個遊戲，誰願意配合我一下。'
一女生走上台來。
教授 說:' 請在黑板上寫下你難以割捨的二十個人的名字。 '
女生照做了。有她的鄰居、朋友以、親人等等。
教授 說 :' 請你劃掉一個這 堶惕 A 認為最不重要的人。 '
女生劃掉了一個她鄰居的名字。
教授又 說:' 請你再劃掉一個。 '
女生又劃掉了一個她的同事。
教授再 說 :' 請你再劃掉一個一生中最不重要的人。 '
女生又劃掉了一個。 ......


最後，黑板上只剩下了三個人，她的父母、丈夫和孩子。
教室非常安靜，同學們靜靜的看著教授，感覺這似乎已不再是一個遊戲了。
教授平靜的 說 :' 請再劃掉一個。 '
女生遲疑著，艱難的做著選擇 ......
她舉起粉筆，劃掉了父母的名字。
' 請再劃掉一個。 '身邊又傳來了教授的聲音。
她驚呆了，顫巍巍地舉起粉筆緩慢而堅決的又劃掉了兒子的名字。
緊接著，她哇的一聲哭了，樣子非常痛苦。
教授等她平靜了一下，問道 :'和你最親的人應該是你的父母和你的孩子，因為父母是養育的人，孩子是你親生的，而丈夫是可以重新再尋找的，為什麼丈夫反倒是你最難割捨的人呢？ '
同學們靜靜地看著她，等待著她的回答。
女生平靜而又緩慢地 說道 :'隨著時間的推移，父母會先我而去，孩子長大成人後肯定也會離我而去，真正陪伴我度過一生的只有 我的丈夫

Promise

不再相信 promises. 大多数都不会实现。

希望变成失望，就会有一种背叛的感觉。蛮认同的，可是不是我写的。

Maybe next month start study already. The course I will be taking is not my dream. But this is the only choice that I can think other than my dream. Just hope I won't make the wrong decision anymore. Have to enjoy the remaining holiday fully.

不受影响

开朗的我能维持多久
唯一的方法是不受任何事，人影响
这样才能开心

不了解

不知为什么总是得到那个答案
不明白
不了解
只能说有时候不能单看表面
背后所发生的事是别人看不到，无法理解的

无法实现曾经的梦想
是时候放开
接受新的梦想

以为会有人了解我
可是那只是以为
忙碌的生活是为了逃避现实？
只是不想有思考/想东西的时间

需要

Now I really need people to talk to. Just feel like want to talk to people.

当初的决定是对还是错
不同的决定都会有不同的人生
一旦做了决定就无法改变了
不能往后看
因为后悔也太迟了
所以只能往前走

Back

I am back from another earth. u all think is what?

Unfortunately it became a hurdle in happy life. Need time to arrange my feelings.

1 week

1 week past so fast. Went to a camp past few days ago. The camp was fun. Will upload picture and write a post after I can use my computer. Recently can't online so if got anything important just sms me. thank you. Sorry for the inconvenience. Recently read a book called present. Quite nice and meaningful. I really learn a lot of things after reading it. If feel free and boring at home, I would recommend u all to read it. I know the way to be happy. Truly now I have a happy life. I like my life now. For those who having holiday, enjoy holiday. for those who having exam, good luck in exam. Take care everyone.

离开后，留给你们的是一个东西和回忆

Bye bye my friends. Take care everyone.

续集

Not yet thank all my friends who wish me.

ruby teo: thank you for your wishes. I knew her through camp. Can't believe that now we still keep in touch.

hwee sann: thank you for your wishes too. Long time no see her already. Glad that she still remember me.

mei lin: one of my college friend. although we not so close but she is my first friend I knew at Ausmat. thank you for your wishes.

samantha: same class since form 2. quite a long time. glad that she remembered my birthday. thank you for your wishes.

shirley: I knew her through rumah sukan cus we are in the same rumah sukan. glad that she knew my birthday. thank you for your wishes.

su han: he is my gor gor. his hair very nice. same class since standard 5 until form 5. next time got chance then promote to u all. thank you for your wishes.

chin yee： meeting her can say is 缘分。 I remembered the 1st time we meet I not really know about her. But we quite 有缘， always will meet each other at anywhere of the college. Then after chatting for some time then we get to know each other more. thank you for your wishes.

kai ling: I knew her because of my tuition friend, jo ann cus she same class with her before. At that time we quite close but after that she has her own friends already. thank you for your wishes.

miko lim: I knew her through facebook. Not really know her but got keep in touch by leaving comments. thank you for your wishes.

huey chia : She is the friend which knows my character very well eventhough we not very close. I knew her through camp a few years back. Glad that we still got keep in touch. She is one of my counsellor. During form 5 and this year, I always ask her advice about what to study, how to study and how to face problems. Thank you very much to her and her wishes.

weng hoe : One of my collegemates. Almost the end of the course only knew him. Knew him through presentation. Thank you for your wishes.

eddie : One of my ex- schoolmates. Same class during form 2 and form 3. Thank you for your wishes.

jia yi : One of my ex- schoolmates too.

kim hoong

william chua

wan boon keng

weng hong

nian yu

joon leng

chin nin

kelly tang

mages

xiu ting

heema

joyce

fliwz chong

jia wen

ee choe

yvonne

suzanne

siao ping

alex

jessie

quek shen

shermay

pui xin

sze ming

myra

stephanie

wei ling

tan chuen

amy

chay jeong

ying xian

elva leong

gervince chai

jian liang

serene

damian

jo ann

siong leng

devika

danapriya

jin yuan

xin di and xin qi

累了

Felt very tired. should I give up?

离开还是留在原地？

机会就在眼前， 犹豫不决会让你错失机会

New day. New month. The days after 18 years old not really good. Boring, Very fan and ...Next week onwards i guess it is hard to find me. I need storybook so much. Don't know why nowadays I need it so much. Maybe this is the way to don't always find ppl to chat which disturb ppl and don't think too much. Hope I still can survive from day to day.

看清了改变与事实

以前的我是被受保护的。不知从几时开始，我不在被受保护了。原本我以为那只是一瞬间，没想到却变成了事实。

培训营

Today quite fun. Long time didn't laugh until stomach pain le...Played lots of games to prepare for the camp. If got chance, hope can play it with friends.

它又在发作了。take care.

今天的你，快乐吗？

一点也不快乐。哭过了，觉得好多了。我还能撑多久呢？我真的不知道。只有尽力而为吧！

Want to wish hui le happy birthday. wish her stay pretty, all the best and always be happy. don't know what u felt today but hope u like it and really felt happy on the celebration.

多余

到今天我才知道原来我是多余的。每次都是我最后一个知道。原来对别人来说我一点也不重要。算了吧。。我要找回坚强的我。

蛋糕

知道为什么蛋糕在生日的时候是那么的重要吗？ 因为有了蛋糕，才能许下生日愿望。大多数都会许三个愿望，而我只许下一个愿望。

有些话想对她说。有些东西不值得去等待。因为在等待的过程，只让自己更痛苦。虽然她没有说出口，可是我感觉得到。毕竟我曾经经历过，所以我知道那是什么感觉。说真的，虽然她表面上若无其事，可是看到的人都会心疼。心疼为什么她会得到那样的对待。心疼为什么帮不上忙。心疼她为什么让自己那么痛苦。心疼她为什么总是隐藏心里面的痛苦。现在是时候让她做自己的决定。早一点面对比迟一点来的好。决定让自己继续痛苦和等待，还是选择面对，让自己自由。这个就由她自己来回答。自己好好想吧！一旦决定了，就不要再犹豫，也不要后悔。加油吧！我挺她。记得我随时都可以给予帮助和安慰。

It comforts me whenever I want. Today midnight i sure need it.

礼物

presents that I received

18th birthday

Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to ying han. Happy birthday to you. I still remembered it in my mind. Although not very suprised but it was very nice. Thank you very much to corine, sher yee, pei ling, eu jin and hock him gave me surprise.

1st person who wished me: Wan Zhen (4/11/2009)
she wished me on her birthday. she also wished me again on my birthday too

2nd: Sher Yee (5/11/2009)
she gave me present on that day. somemore said she can't celebrate with me on my birthday cus going out with family. do u think i will believe? She also wished me happy birthday on 20th and 22nd of november.

3rd: Joon Leng (18/11/2009)
she gave me present on that day too. she can say is my close friend at college. don't know why whenever I felt sad, she will always be there for me. Although she didn't know I felt sad, but she is the one who makes me happy again. So I called her as cheerful girl.

4th: Prasila (20/11/2009)
She is my close classmates and friend at college. I received the greatest present. We went to Sunway Pyramid on that day. First, we went to buy movie ticket. She said she belanja me as my birthday present. Then, we went for lunch at pizza hut. She belanja me again as my birthday present. All this was unexpected. This is what I called surprise. We also took some pictures at there and college. Anyway, pictures not with me now so can't show to u all.

To be continue.....

机会

机会是要自己争取的。有时候机会就只有那么的一次。如果错过了，也许会后悔。

Recall back what had happened during 22nd November of last year. It was an unforgettable day. I was left alone at home on that night. From that day onwards, I don't like leaving alone. I hate the feeling of dumping. Anyway, the feeling was around me. It was the sadest feeling.

Recently I knew I kept on let myself to be busy. Let myself don't have time to think of anything. Although don't know what is the reason but most probably is a way to don't think of any sad thing.

Just a few days went out then said I everyday went out. Swt! I just went out with friends for 2 days only. These was what I did on past few nights.

Monday night: at home
Tuesday night: dancing. online
Wednesday night: camp meeting. online
Thursday night: awards night. online
Friday night: online
Saturday night: camp meeting. online

Don't like people control me. don't want to say words which can hurt people. I knew what is the feeling if hurt by people.

2011

2011. It was not the year. It was today date and month. Thank you very much to prasila.

Forget to tell u all that this holiday can't come to my house cus something is going on which is repair and renovation. So sorry about that.

last day at Sunway College

Last day at Sunway College have many feelings.



Chin Yee and me

Haiz...she lost her laptop on wednesday evening around 6.30pm. I just went back home. If I was at there, I sure will help her to catch the bad guy. Hope she can found back it.

thinking

Received the second present. I like it. It was from Joon Leng. Thank you very much to her. Quite surprised that she remembered it.

Thinking about that until felt so depressed. Luckily now I had some ideas already. Got to know myself more. Going to leave it soon. Take care everyone.

累但快乐的一天

Fist day of holiday. Super boring. Luckily went to Pei Ling's house and went for dancing. Anyway, bring trouble to pei ling which makes me feel quite guilty. At night only went back home. I felt so tired and sleepy.

It's over

Finally it is over. Anyway, it ended badly. First time felt that ACCOUNTS is worse than PHYSICS. Now say anything also meaningless. Overall still ok.

Analysis:

Physics: still ok. almost same level as previous exam.

Eald: Although not enough time to write the essay but I really did my best for the listening.

Chemistry: I thought it was the worst but it is not. Anyway, not enough time to write the essay too.

Applics: still ok. not that hard that I thought.

Accounts: The worst exam ever.

That's all. Don't think about it already. Just enjoy holiday first.Take care everyone.

过不了那一关

我还是过不了自己那一关。 最后还是回到原点。

以泪洗脸

Please stop giving the cold shoulder to us. Cold shoulder just bring the sadness. Don't know whether they know it or not. It is not fun at all. It also won't bring happiness too. All it brings is SADNESS. Sometimes it will be a HURT too. Maybe they just think it is just a normal action. However, it is like a hurt, hurt our deepest heart. No matter what we do, it is still remain in the heart. Crying should be the best way to feel better. But I think some of u may think that crying is not a good way. Sometimes there is no reason behind it.

被丢下的感觉

被丢下的感觉真的很难受。去年的那一天却不幸发生了。还以为那是第一次，也是最后一次。可是却发生了好几次。

Nian Yu's birthday

Happy birthday to nian yu. We did it although we had limited time.^^

消失的彩虹

Sorry to the pink girl. I knew u calling me but sorry that I didn't respond. Anyway, thank you for your caring although I not sure who are u.

应该读什么

Quantitative surveyer? Actuaral science? Biotech? Bioscience?

Please stop asking me what to study. It is so annoying and suffer when don't know what to do and how to answer.

雨天

Don't know why recently I was so down.

一半

when can I drive?

低落

Felt so down. Anyway, thank you for my brother for making me happy. At least I still can laugh from my heart. I even laugh until my back and stomach was so pain. Hoping for the days after exam. Life without online and facebook is so boring and suffering.

The first present

Surprise? Yesterday I received the first present from mokky. Quite suprised about that. Anyway, I was too exhausted until don't know what to say. Anyway, thanks a lot to mokky. haha...I know what u gave before I opened it cus that is my favourite food. Since u want to know what I want then I am kind to say that I want a dress. Mokky, satisfied?

无法形容

如果又再发生，我真的真的会崩溃。我真的没有力了。。很累很累很累了。。。为什么不让我帮呢？

冷

Recently the weather is so cold. Now I not so scard of cold already.

Get use to cold shoulder.

不想长大

不想长大。长大了，有任何问题都没有老师可以问。

Wiped off the tears. Tell my ownself that I can make myself happy again.

Touched

Almost forget need to bring the yellow paper for exam. Thank you to my friend for reminding me. I am glad to have such a caring friend. wish her good luck in exam. ^^

wondering why

Don't like the feeling. what I should do?

十一月

Exam month. When exam is coming, the stress will also be there.

Yesterday almost fainted once. Luckily u were beside me at that time. Just hope I won't feel like fainting at the new month.

If nobody asked me to rest when played badminton, I think I will not stop playing.

Felt sick after took my nap. Just felt that my forehead is hot. Hope I not fall sick.

I know what is it. Just see whether it is true or not.

31st of October

October is going to end. This means that this year is going to end soon. Recall back what had happened during this year, it seems like just happened yesterday. This year I think is the fastest year. Don't know why feel so. Maybe because my course is just a year. Suddenly miss my college life. Although sometimes it was boring sometimes it was stress, but I loved the life after mocks exam. Perhaps it just like having holiday because we just kept on do question only. haha...Anyway, I think beginning of the year was the happiest moment in my life.

Today felt so happy although really tired. I wanna apologise about the losing. Perhaps I not really played properly because back pain happened during the second match. Anyway, it was nice to play with u all. Now I had released all my stress. Recently really too stress already. This was why today I played badminton for so long time. Thanks to all of you.

Going to stop blogging for this meanwhile. Wish all ausmat students good luck in wace exam. We can do it. Gambatte! Everyone take care=)

This is it

It is nice. If have a feeling want to watch a movie, I would recommend it.

压力

Really stress until I don't know what to do.

压力确实让我喘不过气，睡不好。真的不知道该怎么办才好。只希望我还能面对吧！

Here are some pictures I took at science centre.

感觉

After this month I guess my life will be better. Looking forward for the days after exam. Maybe that time I will be missing the class.

雨总是知道我的心情。至少有一份安慰。

善忘的我

Forgetful me. Really forgetgul. even forgot where i put my driving license and was finding it for an hour. Searched it on every single place. Took all the things out and put in again.

科学馆

Can't upload photo at home. Will upload the pictures soon.

Same problem happened on tonight. Luckily now I am ok.

Today was the first time I drive after I passed and got my license. It was really unforgettable especially when someone was screaming. Anyway, I found back the courageous me. I remembered last time I didn't scard of almost everything, always dare to try. If now, maybe I will scard of something.

I think I can face the unpredicted things. I have prepared for it. No matter what will happen I hope I can accept it. Maybe that is the time I have to make a choice.

想说声谢谢

想要谢谢曾经伤害过我，责骂过我的人。没有你们，我就不会长大，不会明白那么多件事，也不会学习到那么多东西。虽然受伤害的时候，心很痛很痛。可是回想起来也算是一个回忆。

有惊有险

What happened to me? Almost fainted thrice in the college. Never had this experience before. The first time is 10.36am, second time is 1.40pm, third time is 2.25pm. All this time I was alone. Maybe wondering why I walked around. Perhaps I walked around because I knew I not feeling well. Don't want ppl worry me so I would choose to walk away. Anyway, the first time was the worst. I didn't want to follow. I went to foyer to sit down for a while. But it getting worse. Then I went to sit at the staircase which seldom people walked by. Got a guy passed by then asked me what happen. That time I was so blur then I said nothing. Luckily after that I still can walk back to library.

Learn how to handle it alone. When alone, everything has to depends on our own. Once give up, everything will gone.

难以预料

Can't believe that. It was my first time get scolded for a long time but I didn't cry. I was so sleepy until I don't know what to response.

Not feeling well in the afternoon. Feel like vomiting. Luckily Chin Yee chat with me, let me have some time to don't think of vomit. Nice to chat with her.

Something which I don't want to know.

One month before the important day to me.

The last class

The last class just ended 10 minutes ago. Started on 3 something but ended on 3.55pm. fast,right?

Going to miss my classmates and classes. Suddenly felt so lost. like something is missing.

The feeling

Now I understand what is the feeling when in that situation.

两天

Two days past and now I only know I didn't update my blog for two days. Until today I only know I scard losing the things that I have. Anyway, suffering of sick for 2 days. What I can do is just take more rest, drink more water or eat medicine and sleep. Don't like to have flu. It makes me sleep then wake up, sleep then wake up. It is hard to sleep since I will be using mouth to breathe. When I will recover? I really don't know.

Two days mean a lot to me cus I have 2 friends who have birthday on yesterday and today. Happy birthday to myra and sher yee. Hope both of u have a wonderful birthday. Wish both of u all the best and always be happy. Good luck in your exam too.

What I was doing on these 2 days. Friday went to class as usual but I only have a class which is accounts class. It was my first time doing the question non-stop. After class, went to library. After that, joyce saw me and chat with me. The time past so slow. I was waiting to go back while she was waiting to have her econs class. We chat until don't know what to say already but the time moved so slow. Everytime we watched the clock, it just past 10 minutes. swt!

Yesterday I went to ioi with pei ling and nian yu. We walked around and had lunch together. Anyway, I was not feeling well for whole day. After back home for an hour, then I went out again for meeting. Suddenly felt sleepy and suffering because of the flu. Haiz..Suffering for 3 hours then at last I was at home. Felt relieved after a busy day?

Today woke up at 9.15am. I was alone at home at that time because I slept again after my dad woke me up. After had my breakfast, I went jogging with my family. Felt like fainting when I was alone. So I kept myself walking when I had that feeling. After went back home, slept for half an hour then took bath. Had lunch at outside. At home in the afternoon.

Toughest and fastest year

I believe that this year is the toughest year. No matter what it is going to end. Yesterday my friend and I were talking about that. Sad feeling was around us recently. One of the reason is we going to leave here soon and leave each other. Although we just know each other for about a year only, but we seems like a family already. Especially during english class. This also the first time I really enjoy english class. Don't know why felt like my lecturer is just like my friend, easy to communicate. Other than that, she likes to say us is a happy family and kanak-kanak ribena cus is full of laughter in our class. If u are in our class, u will agree with me. Eventhough during that time feel depressed or sad, I still can smile or laugh after hear what they say in the class. At that time, I will feel that it is glad to be in the same class with them.

Another great moment is doing groupwork during english class like presentation. It was the first time I became the main character for the drama. Some people know me because of the character- Jack.

Maybe some of u may think that Ausmat is easy but it is not that easy as u think eventhough from the appearance we have less assignment or discussion. If u study it, u will know what I mean. We very stress when exam coming soon or during exam. Wish all of u good luck in studies.

Understand

Now I understand already. Thinking back on my silly thought, it is so funny. I really learn a lesson.

离不开

Today I lied on the table after I went into the class. My friend saw it then asked me I so tired ar...I said yes. Then asked me why. I said I don't know. I really don't know why I so tired.

原来我还是离不开它,可是会离人越来越远。今年的确发生了很多事。开始觉得很累很累很累了。

无法形容的一天

有些事情真的无法预料。

Don't know have to be happy or sad. don't know how to explain. I didn't witness the scene and didn't help at all cus after went back everything have been settle already. What I can see was the damage.

Joyfulness?

Can't believe that. Is it a dream? I did it. I really can't believe that I have passed my driving exam. Kinda relief. Anyway, I also got did mistake a bit.

I find it back.

雨过天晴

别担心。我现在好多了。 雨过天晴。我会加油的。

缘分

缘分很巧妙。到来的时候挡也挡不了。想要的时候却等也等不到。该放弃还是继续等呢？

最近的我也许会变得更静。我一直以为只要耐心的等，结果会是自己想要的。可是原来我错了。只有努力去争取，结果才会是自己想要的。

原本以为放弃是件很容易的事，可是不是每件事都可以那么容易的放弃。尤其是那些已经深深地存在心里的事是无法说放弃就放弃的。

外面的天气诉说着我的心情

Am I ok? I also don't know. 我不会再为了同样的原因而伤心了吧！

现在的我只想要一个人静一静。找到了暂时解决低落的心情的方法。而我希望明天我可以是真正的自己。独自一个人两个小时。幸好我今天想独自一个人，要不然我不知道我会变成怎样。

7th of October

Finally finish my oral exam.

用微笑来带过

有时候只能用微笑来带过。

I want to clarify that i know what is the meaning of solitude doesn't mean I like to be alone. Although sometimes when sad feel like want to be alone but I still hope got people can accompany me. No need to know anything. Eventhough didn't ask anything or didn't say anything but accompany is good enough already. Anyway, also get use to facing it alone already.

Already finish all the syllabus. This indicates that my course is going to end. Happy or sad? I am going to leave the place, leave my friends and lecturers. Can't describe the feeling. Have to think what's I going to study next year which I don't like to think. Somemore still got final exam. Recently can no need to attend class cus some lecturer didn't take attendance already. Should I skip class? But I still attend it. Recently almost having each class for 1 hour only. Just do some questions only then finish class already. My friend see me so fast finish class, even thought I didn't attend class. swt!

Tagged by lala and mokky

1.被点到的一定要填，不填代表你不尊敬点给你的人和问卷

2.老实的回答每一题问题

3.不行乱改题目

4.写完一定要点8位朋友，不可不点

5.写完后请通知那8位被点到的朋友

6.完成后，请告诉点你的人



-----個 人 題 - 10 題-----

你叫什么名: 颜颖涵 Gan Ying Han
称號: ying han, ying, ah han, han, ying ying
你的血型：B
你的星座:天蝎座、射手座
你是男還是女：女
你幾歲： 17+
你住哪裡：Bandar Puteri
你的学校: Sunway College
你有沒有手機 : 有



.------朋 友 題 - 10 題------

你最要好的朋友（限１個）: 不能说的秘密
你最討厭的人（限１個）: 没有
你最正的女性朋友（限１個）：子仪
你的男性朋友（限１個）：不知道
怎样的女生你最討厭： 不说事实
什麼樣的男生你最討厭：说话伤人
好朋友有誰（不限）：很多
你經常和哪位朋友出去: 子仪，珮凌
你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）: Joon Leng



-----情 題 - 15題-----

你有沒有喜歡的人：有
如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半:-
目前为止,跟多少人告白過：没有gua..
目前為止，你被多少人告白過：两个
目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋有：一次
你現在有另一半嗎: 有
你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣: 吓到吧！
你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 : 看情况
你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人: 因为我就是喜欢他
和另一半牽手過嗎: 秘密
和你的另一半抱或親過嗎: 秘密
你跟異性牽手過嗎：有
有是誰，你們什麼關係:秘密
目前有人追你嗎：不知道

------混 合 題 - 10 題------
如果有one天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣: 不知道。。
one天，好朋友背叛你，你會：以后只能做普通的朋友
如果有one天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：不理。。
你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎: 会
上課認真嗎 :有时
你功課好不好： 中等
你开电腦都在幹麻：上网
你的即时通有多少个同性: 什么来的
你的即時通裡有多少個異性：什么来的

-----兇 手 題 - 1 0 題------
傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：慧乐,子仪
这個人對你好不好: 好
这人是你的誰: 好朋友
你有喜歡過這個人嗎：哈哈。。我们不是同性恋
認識多久了：慧乐7-8 年，子仪5年
這個人是怎樣的人：慧乐：乐观，开朗，美，善良，忠心，独立，友善
子仪：独立，有主见，勤劳，能制造热闹气氛，喜欢食物，喜欢分享，好学
個人正／帥嗎：哈哈。。问她们咯。。
這個人跟你有沒有在一起过: 哈哈。。玩，看电影和出街

------聯 想 題 - 10 題------
說到正妹你會想到誰:不知道
說到帥哥你會想到誰:喜欢的人
說到憨你會想到誰: 哈哈。。秘密
說到痴你會想到誰: 秘密
說到暗戀你會想到誰: 没有
說到出去玩你會想到誰: 朋友
說到聰明鬼你會想到誰: 秘密
說到傻子你會想到誰: 自己
說到笑點低你會想到誰：？？
說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Joon Leng

------學 校 題 - 1 1 題------
你的班導是誰: 没有
你的座位是第幾排第幾個:不定
你最喜歡的老師是誰: Pn Yong
你的體育好嗎：还好
你的数学好么：中等
你喜不喜歡你的校長：还好
你的學校好看嗎：好看
你的班級是： 没有班级
你的班級在幾樓：四楼

要点的人(Randomly)：
1.珮凌
2.念喻
3.筱嘉
4.ruby
5.慧莹
6.Xin Di
7.Xin Qi
8.看这个blog的你

Now I know what is solitude.

1st of October

New month new luck? This year no luck for me. Just hope that nothing will happen anymore.

Not going to online for the next 2 days. Perhaps not blogging also. Anything just sms me if emergency or important thing. If not, just leave a comment at here.

友情

也许它已经不见了。友情不是永远的，但朋友会是永远的。我不想知道了，因为我不知道哪一个才是真的。累了。。放过我，好吗？

明白

曾经我以为不说，别人就会明白。不是明白到底发生什么事，而是明白我的苦衷。可是原来我错了。那背后却是一种伤害。伤害了别人，也伤害了自己。或许我找不到能明白我的人。我还以为不说，就可以让人不会为了我难过，不会知道那事情的真相。 可是原来不是从我口中知道真相后，会比原来的还要难过。 有时候不说是因为不希望单方面的分享。

一次又一次的跌倒是需要勇气去重新站起来。鼓励，安慰和支持是需要的。她不会安慰我，没关系。可是她却说一些让我越跌越深的话，让我在心里想着她到底知不知道我有多伤心多难过多痛苦。不渴望她会安慰我，只希望她可以不要再说了。希望我不会再掉入低潮期，那黑暗的世界。

我接受了那事实。虽然最近发生的都是不如意的事，但我相信事情的发生背后会有它的意义。

想静一静

why it seems like so bad?

Tiring sunday

Slept for 3 hours. In the morning, went to bukit jalil park jogging with family. In the afternoon, my family and I went to Sunway Pyramid to watch movie. Guess what movie I watched?

After that, went to old town to have teatime. Went back home at last.

Satuday night

It was the first time I spent my saturday night with friends. It also the first time I played badminton for such a long time. Can't believe that. It was fun and I wished I no need to go back home. Suddenly addicted with that. However, my hand and back were pain. But it was not the first time I went there. What had happened before is still in my mind. Had gastric when sleeping. Don't know why. Maybe hungry already. Waiting for the next.

那是。。。

那场戏虽然有点闷，可是却让我想起。。。

J co donut

10 fingers

Whose hand is this?

The smallest donut?

Joyce feeding pei ling

Me and Joyce

Tearing the tiramisu donut?

First photo with pei ling that I have

24th of October

Still got one more to go. March intake friends enjoy holiday oh...

意志力

知道为什么有些病人可以康复就算她们得的是癌症？那是因为她们生存的意志力比别人强。像我们没有疾病的人，意志力应该比她们强吧！可是我却曾经失去过它。。

快乐的时候，能和别人分享，就会有希望。伤心的时候，能得到别人的鼓励，就会有一丝的安慰。

人因梦想而伟大，我因挫折而长大。

别人对你的伤害是无心的，可是对你的帮助是真心的。不要怀疑别人是否是真心的。当你怀疑的时候，就看不到真心了。

为什么会是一个人呢？

Should I blogging?

Suddenly came out this question in my mind. Should I blogging?

Yesterday slept in front of the computer. Can't believe that I can do that. Anyway, got went back to bed to sleep.

Recently what I feel? emo? sad? happy? Just feel ok only. Tired and easy to faint happened recently.

Friendship forever? Sorry to say that I can't believe it anymore. But I still consider friends forever. Happy birthday to my friend, prasila.

Wish everyone enjoy raya holiday. But, I can't enjoy it. Waiting for next week.

Chance

Don't miss the chance before regret. The feeling of regret is not as simple as 123. It may make people remember it for the rest of the life. It also may make people to remind themselves to not do that again. Just have one chance to live. If give up, the chance will not repeat or come back again. Will I give?

I have many secrets in heart? I don't have. Just sometimes something happened may let me have some new thoughts. So, I just write it out. Sometimes just share my feeling but that not means that I always sad.

Friendship? Really hope to know what is friendship? I admit that I won't involve in any new friendship anymore. This not means I don't want to have new friends. I still will let myself have new friends but I won't put too many effort on that.

Helping is good? I don't think so. Nothing good will happen next. People just say thank you and won't care about what we have gone through when helping them.

还要相信吗？

心碎

心碎很容易，心动就很难。
有遇到同样的情况，可是这次我可以面对。

雨，谢谢你。
我好多了。。

I quite early leave the hall. Do anyone realise? The reason is I don't want to faint at there. wish me all the best tomorrow. Hope I still can handle it.

心

对我的好
无法形容
可是却深深地烙印在我心里。。

我会珍惜
会包容
会听话

对不起，
以前的我不会包容，
固执又不独立。。。

心被融化
不开心的事都忘了

No faint no life. wish ausmat students and me good luck in mock exam.

最大的惊喜

今天收到最大的惊喜。I was panic. Pei Ling saw that. She told me that it was the first time I had that impression. It is true that first time I was panic in front of my friends.

在我最无助的时候，没有人伸出援手。知道吗？ 出乎意料的是我能自己面对它。这是第一次，也没想到我还可以像以前那样的坚强。不过，那只是短短的半小时。

希望能找回它。

The power of word

Don't underestimate the power of word or sentence. It may hurt people deeply. At that time even hundred times of sorry also can't cure it. I agree with it. Think before say anything.

Sharing is caring. Thank you very much to xin di for sharing the book with me. Hope I can finish reading it as soon as possible.

From tomorrow onwards I will seldom online. Any important thing just sms me or leave me a comment at here. Thank you. Wish all ausmat students good luck in coming exam.

Just want to inform u all that my driving exam changes to 29 of September.

我以为我可以开心地面对它，可是我做不到。不再勉强了。

大小姐？小公主？

有个人总是不自觉地想和我吵架
可是我也十分地挣扎
每当看到那个人伤心或睡不着的时候，
我却不忍心丢下她一个人
我也不知道为什么
不知道为什么不忍心丢下她
不知道为什么想保护她
不知道为什么要对她好
而她却觉得那是理所当然的

Weak

Recently don't know what happened to me. Today slept for a long time and took nap for one and a half hours but still feel tired. 我还能撑多久？真的很累很累了。。

Wish pei ling can recover from flu soon. take care.

Angel

天使保护着人们，让他们尽可能不受任何伤害，永远的保护他们。我一直都相信，因为每一次都让我度过难关。是幸运还是保佑？这让我不得不相信天使的存在。自从那件事，我的人生改变了。是别人操控着我的人生，而我也知道我的人生会变成这样。 唯有接受，因为事实是不能改变的。天使， 我该怎么办才好？

Leona Lewis - Angel
Lyrics by Fanessia
I feel it, you feel it
That this was meant to be.
I know it, you know it
That you were made for me.
We came tonight, not any longer
Day by day we're getting stronger.
I want it, you want itIt's what the people want to see.
We're like Romeo and Juliet
Fact leaves fate to find us.
Like the tallest mountain on the widest sea
Nothing's big enough to hide us.
When we make love its overwhelming
I just touch the heavens
You're an angel, you're an angel
I said this world, this world.
Could leave us anyday
But my love for you, it will never go away.
And I don't wanna go to sleep
Cuz' you are like a dream
For every night I see you there,
And I swear you are the answer
You're an angel, you're an angel, you're an angel.
So we take it and each moment that I pause
I see it, you see it,
What we have is made of gold
We're so filled with meaning,
Nothing can make us shallow.
So I hold it, and you hold it
The promise of tomorrow.
When we make

p/s: mokky, still remember which teacher is your 天使？

Exam

Exam. When people heard of exam, most people dislike it. do u agree? Some people will feel scard too. The first time I scard of exam is this year evaluation exam. I remembered 2 days before physics exam, I scard until I can't sleep at night. Now think back felt very funny.

Exam is part of the life that all of us have to go through. First, we will have UPSR, then PMR, then SPM, then STPM or Pre-u. When had UPSR, we would think it's not easy. When had PMR, we would think it's not easy but think UPSR is so easy. When had SPM, we would think it is very hard but think UPSR and PMR is so easy. When had STPM or Pre-u, we would think UPSR, PMR and SPM is easy. I think this is what some of u will think that or feel that also,right?

Some of them will aim for high marks before getting the result. When they had good result, they will cheer for their success. When they had bad result, they will feel very disappointed. This is why we have this phrase in chinese, 希望越大，失望越大。The feeling is not good. If can, better don't let yourself to have that feeling. It may let u to give up. But give up is not the way to solve anything. When want to give up, just give yourself confident and tell yourself that u can do it.

Time flies without we knowing it. Mock exam is around the corner. Scard also have to face it. Not scard also have to face it. Most of them scard or worry about that. Starting of this month I also felt that but now didn't feel that already. Not I not scard or not worry. Is nothing to be scard and worry cus exam is like a daily routine already. But I not confident is for sure. If u study Ausmat, u will know that. These few weeks every week also got exam like the clock not stop moving. My mum asked me why every week got exam? how I know oh...

Something happened without knowing why. Suddenly my leg like no feeling when walked. Is a sign?

Wish my friends who taking computer science, cae and english good luck for tomorrow.

090909

090909 so meaningful. I didn't know that today is 090909 until my friend told me that. Don't know how to say about my day. First, went to class got people said I am emo. I was like what? Luckily is said for fun only.

After class, met mokky at library for a while. Sorry, didn't chat much with u.

Second, I was mad today. Sorry to pei ling and joyce. I also don't know what I was talking. Pei ling, remember next time prepare the box oh....haha...

After class, saw pei ling again at library. After that, saw mokky again at library.

Wish everyone happy forever just like 090909. wish all my friends good luck and all the best for tomorrow topic test and coming mock exam.

Suspect

why want to suspect me? I also didn't do anything.

The feeling of disappointment is not only come when have hope. Without hope, the feeling of disappointment still can be so strong.

I also hope there will be no sad posts anymore. Sorry to my friends who feel sad after reading the posts. Thank you very much for all of your caring. Hope I will be happy soon.^^

To my friends, if want to go out with me or invite me to anywhere during end of the year, please let me know when u make sure the date. Have to make appointment oh...Not all the time I am available.

预感

刚才去了一个熟悉的地方，也做了同样的事情，可是这次是我一个人去而已，而且是在黑暗的地方。这次我用很短的时间在那里。伤害有时是不自然的产生。有时想阻止的时候已经太迟了。我应该说谢谢还是不想要呢？心里的确很挣扎。因为在伤口还没复合的时候，又让它无法复合而且伤得更深。谢谢是因为它让我更坚强。不想要是因为我真的不想要了，因为那种感觉很痛苦，很难受。

今天我有不详的预感，觉得有不好的事情会发生。果然真的有事情发生。 我在下个星期不能考车。好消息还是坏消息？对我来说或许是好消息吧！可以让我有时间慢慢恢复。我知道朋友们都希望我能开心起来，可是我只能短暂的开心，有时勉强的笑。对不起，让你们失望了。

对了，如果你们11月，12月想找我或想约我去哪里，确定日期请让我知道。要有预约的哦。。谢谢。

Holiday?

Today is public holiday. Actually I planned to go college today but didn't go. Played badminton in the morning.

After that, went to have lunch. online and do piano homework in the afternoon. After that, took nap. recently don't know why so tired.

It didn't drop for a few days although sometimes almost cannot control. Then I fell asleep yesterday.

Happiness or sadness?

Glad that can see u all today cus long time didn't see u all already. Quite happy in the morning. Nice to chat with sheau jia.

Anyway, happiness is just a moment. Another time I was the last one to know. The feeling is so terrible. why I always is the last one to know? It makes me feel that I was invinsible.

Someone asked me do I have true friends in college. How only consider is true friends? Some of my form 6 friends admire me can go college cus they feel that college is more fun than secondary. Seriously, I think that secondary is more fun than college. I miss secondary very much. Glad that can see u all yesterday. All of them I three months didn't see them already.

Today only I know that quite a lot of people see my blog. Thank you for visiting.

5th of September

Actually don't feel like blogging but don't know why I still open and write it. ok or not ok is just a line. It likes a graph. above x axis is ok, below x axis is not ok.

straightforward is better than lie? eventhough lie is even hurt but straightforward sometimes may be a hurt when lie will not appear. You will know the feel when u experience it. why everyone say I am kind? but I didn't feel so. Secret is just a secret. Nobody will know when people didn't reveal it to anyone. Last time I thought that but now I not sure already. Just hope that it won't close anymore. If not, it will be hard to open again.

Don't know since when I start always crying. Whenever have problem or feel sad or feel stress, crying became the way to let me feel better. But the worst thing is will forget everything. Now maybe sleeping can replace it. Crying in the heart may replace crying directly. However listening to music doesn't help much.

Never think I am good because I know my weaknesses. I know I not as good as last time.

I will be back

I will be back to help u all. Long time no see u all already. Hope this time I won't lose my promise again.

The photo below was taken a few years ago.

One of the game

After played games

Group photo

Can find me?

Guess when is it?

Appreciate

Thank you very much to my classmates. Now I felt better already. The happiness just came without knowing.

Next tuesday no physics class. So good. Today extra class also not very long time. Just 2.45pm-4pm. Quite fun during the class. Soon will very less or no online.

不再执着了。顺其自然。

12.25am: feel like fainting.

The worst day

The worst day I hope I will never have it again. Not feel like blogging but since quite a lot of people asked about that. So wanted to thank u all. I am glad to have u all as my friends. Thank you for the caring. I can't give up until 24th of September. Still on the way to final destination. What had happened is just a challenge. Although I hope I won't remember it but I will never forget. First time I can't stop myself. Luckily someone called me who stopped it. If not, I can't imagine when it ended. Time really can change people's impression. It's true. I will never forget.

Appreciate the day I have.

2nd of September

Actually wanted to tell u all today but forget already. Never mind. Just want to tell u all that tomorrow I got 2 exams. 1 is Q.T.I exam. Another one is applics topic test. Now looking at the time is almost 1am. I still haven't sleep. Don't know why can't sleep. Nervous? Maybe. Just thinking about what will happen tomorrow. Anyway, wish all applics students good luck in the test tomorrow. We can do it. I also will try my best. Hope will be a good news.

谁会是我的天使？

过去 continue

还记得婆婆很疼我。每一年的新年，她都会叫我帮她包红包。我都是第一个拿到她的红包。而且是除夕就拿到红包。那时候我真的很开心。可惜现在都没有机会了。一切只能当作回忆。说真的，我好像自从那时就没有帮别人包红包了。

很奇怪的是婆婆和姑姑比起父母，她们比较疼我。每当伤心或找不到人说或需要支持的时候，就会想到她。虽然她不在我的身边，可是感觉到她的存在，给我一点安慰。

过去就让它过去吧！现在也有很多事情要忙了。是时候不想了。加油哦！

过去

每个人也许都有不想让别人知道的过去。可是那会永远停留在心中。

不知道你还记不记得5 月的时候有一个星期我时常都哭。其实那个时候是我最想念我的婆婆的时候。如果有机会，我真希望还能见到她。当时的不懂事换来的是遗憾。也许都是要等到失去了才会珍惜。那种感觉真的很难受。

希望你们会珍惜你们身边的人，不要等到失去了才来后悔，不要让自己有遗憾。有什么话，趁有机会的时候就说，不要迟疑。

31st of August

I almost forgot today is national day. Maybe because not much celebration this year. I even thought today is sunday.

Sometimes hurt can make people sad, can make people cry but it may make people become brave too. Thank you for the hurt because it trains me. To me, cry is the way to forget all the sad moments and release stress. That's why I so forgetful and always cry. Actually there are some ways to forget all the sad moments but need to find a suitable way is not so easy. Sometimes need to depend on people, sometimes it is just between want or don't want. Sharing your sad moments with your friends or someone that u trust also may make u feel better. I did it before. If I can choose, living beside the sea is the best cus there is a way.

It is hard to forget sad moments but time can let it past or heal the pain. I tried it before. Now thinking back it is just a part of my life. Pain will go. Anyway, the hurt still in the heart. Some songs may let people felt sad or depressed because they are meaningful to them or describing something which is similar to their life. Whenever listen to that song, it will roll down the cheeks without knowing what is the reason.

大人的世界

原来大人的世界没有想像中那么的简单。工作的压力，income tax, 烦恼钱，上司给的压力，房屋贷款，油费，生活费。。。

还是读书比较好。虽然有压力，有烦恼，可是都会比大人的压力和烦恼还要少。多么希望不用长大，能寻找我的童年。因为一点童年的记忆都没有的我觉得很空虚。很奇怪的事是我却记得妹妹的童年。有很多考试来临，要加油了。

今天探望姑姑。看她憔悴，担心和不开心的样子，让人心疼。姑姑，看开点，不要担心， 也不要自责了。希望您能开心起来。

有时应该去察觉别人对你的付出。珍惜别人对你的付出。珍惜眼前人，不要等到失去了才来后悔。

Changes part 3 continue

Sure have changes in life. When think back of what I did last time, it was so funny and didn't know why I would do that during that time. Mostly was during primary school. Don't know whether u all familiar with this word or not.( 绝交)

Some people had changed but some people still remain the same. I really want to know last time what kinds of person am I. Good or bad also can. Feel free please leave a comment. Thank you for all the comments.

Changes part 3

Have I change? Last time I was serious? Just knew that I was serious last time. I didn't know that until someone told me that.

I admit that last time I was too quiet. Maybe because of that so let others think that I am serious. I never serious before.

难以形容的感觉

what happened? suddenly it rolling down the cheeks.

原来受了的伤是不可能像以前一样。 它会是一个伤痕，或是一个阻碍。

Friday?

Yesterday had many nightmare. Woke up for 3 times. Not a good friday. Had english test. Don't know what I wrote.

Tomorrow not going out. Not going anywhere also.

有时伤害会不自觉的发生。有时伤害到别人可是自己没察觉。

27th of August

Woke up at 6.10am. So early,right? But I went back to sleep until 8.15am. In the morning, I was not sleepy at all. After the physics class, I was almost in the dream. During exam, I was sleepy and blur. However, very surprised that this is the first time I finished it before the exam ended. 13 minutes. I was like har? 13 minutes staring on the paper. Luckily I didn't fall asleep. Today also the first time I so late went back home. 6.50pm still at the college. Luckily pei ling chat with me. If not, I will be daydreaming at there.

Don't know what happened to me.Very tired and felt like vomiting.

Busy Wednesday

Today I was so forgetful. Keep on forget to do this or that. Like lost of memory.

A few announcement. I don't have Malaysian studies class anymore. Just wait for the exam. Seems quite a lot of people ask me when is my holiday. So, just to inform u all that my holiday starts on 25th of September.

25th of August

400 posts. Sleepy. Today english class we watched a movie called the bird cage at seminar room. Quite funny. I freezed in the room. Anyway, my friends and I late for the following class. Luckily teacher didn't scold. Had lab assessment. I was very sleepy at that time.

Hope everyone will be fine. Take care.

Blog

Actually didn't feel like blogging but don't know why I still open the blog and write a post. Maybe it has been a way to help me remember what had happened and express what I think or feel. Blog. Maybe to some of u, blog is a way to express feelings. In my opinion, I think it is not a good way to express anger through blog cus we won't know who see it and we won't know what others feel when they read the post. Maybe they may change their mind on your first impression after reading it.

Recently don't know what happened to me. Past two days felt like want to vomit. Yesterday and today felt very tired. Easy to be tired. Don't know why feel like want to be alone.

21st of August

Today was the first time for accounts class ended earlier, 11.55am. After that, went to library. Unfortunately, most of the computers was used by people. Since the day can access facebook in the library, the computer areas always crowded with people. I went to search some books. Unfortunately, it was missing. I was hungry at that time so I went to eat hakka mee. Quite nice.

Recently don't know why not feeling well. Very weak.

First year have oral exam for Ausmat. 20% for it. The oral exam is technology based. It means we use webcam for oral exam. It sounded quite nice but it is not that easy. Have to be serious on it. If fail, then it may affects a lot. Still got a month for me to prepare. Wish me all the best.

Knew a sad news. Someone that I knew kena H1N1. Hope there will be no any sad news anymore. Everyone must take care of yourself. Bye.

Changes part 2

People will change in certain stages. No matter how people change, we have to accept. We can't change them but we can advise them. We can't say we don't like their changes. We also can't express our feeling that we disagree on their changes. Everyone will change but in the different way. We can't expect people will change according to what we want. Although people change to bad or not the way u want, but is their choice. We can't stop them and ask them to follow the way we want. It is not fair to them. Perhaps they have to their rights to change the way they want and do what they want.

Life is going to change when is the time to change. Sometimes we just don't know it. Finally they agree with me that I shouldn't take this course. Anyway, it is not the time to regret. I not regret with it. Although it is not suitable to me, but can't give up halfway. Need to continue and finish it. Now what I should do is do my best.

I am glad to have an understanding english lecturer and some friends. They really bring me lots of happiness. Eventhough not in a happy mood but can smile when they say something really funny. Still got not much time to be with u all. Now already finish maths and accounts syllabus. Wish u all all the best. Take care.

Ever close to it

Almost fainted at house yesterday. Luckily I was ok after I took nap. Woke up from nightmare after slept for 1 and a half hour. If not the nightmare, I also don't know I sleep until when already.

20th of August

Just want to inform u all that I not going to online during this weekend. Anything just sms me. thank you. Take care everyone.

Changes

Changes. In a certain stage, people sure will change. We can't think that people won't change forever since the day we know them. In between, we sure will go through some hurdles and obstacles. After we had gone through all of them, we may change ourselves or change our thinking. Life also may change because of some reasons. My life will change since the day I left my secondary school. I knew it after half year had gone. Within this half year, many things had happened. Happy things, sad things, troubles, hurdles, assignment, presentation, debates and exams. All had happened. Sometimes we just didn't realise it. We mumbling why our life is so bad but we didn't realise that happiness is always with us and someone just always beside us and care us. Appreciate all the things we have before we lose it.

Finally finished all the classes. Wednesday is the longest class. Suffer for it and waiting the time to pass. Sleepy although yesterday slept early. Don't know what happened to me. Kept on ha chiuk since afternoon until just now. Luckily now ok already.

18th of August

suffering

Pray hardly that I won't be the unlucky one.

17th of August

Today 2 classes no class. Anyway, had applics discussion during applics class. After that, physics class cancel then went to library. Then, had lunch with mokky. Nice porridge. I long time didn't eat that already.

After had my chemistry class, then had test at mph. I did the most stupid thing. I took lift to 3rd floor. But when reached 1st floor, the door opened then I went out. so stupid la...Luckily I realised it is 1st floor and that person press the button and I went back to the lift. I was like so....

Had traffic jam when on the way back to home. I hate traffic jam. When I reached home, straightaway went for piano class. So rush. Luckily I finished my piano exam already. If not, had to play the pieces, scales..... Now no need to play all that already.

If can, these few days don't too close to me.

我宁愿不要知道那事实。

15th of August

I can control already. Although it is hard but is a good improvement. I know I am not clever. Don't expect me to know anything that I don't know. I not genius. It is a fact. So I need to work harder than others. I have not good memory also. Hope I won't fall sick for these few weeks. All the best to all my friends who having exam next week.

Sorry no cure

I think everyone quite familiar with this phrase sorry no cure. In my opinion, if sorry can cure everything then there will be no quarrel, no argument and no hurt.

1 hour again. Today morning (saturday) I woke up at 6.45am. So early. Why I woke up so early? Woke up by my mum because I got driving lesson at 7.30am. I kept on do wrongly then as usual will have volcano. =.= Somemore, my sis yesterday scolded ppl then is my time to have trouble. It is normal.

Silly me

I didn't know that I have left my pendrive at library yesterday. Thank you very much to my friend. Luckily u use that computer after me.

#累垮了。。我能肯定自己，可是我不能肯定别人。

口是心非

人难免会口是心非。不知从几时开始也变成了我的习惯。也许是因为某些原因。最近很累。不知道为什么感觉自己很弱。也许因为忙或太多压力吧！当要放弃的时候，我的心还是那么的坚强。曾经有人说我的名字可以换成硬汉。哈哈。。我还记得很清楚。相信那个人也记得吧！很想念以前读中学的日子。很开心，很有趣，很难忘。还记得以前spm 之前很少人去学校，老师就没有教书。我们就一大班人围在一起聊天。那种感觉真的很棒！可是时间不会倒流的，所以只能当作是美好的回忆。雨最了解人的想法和心情。雨，谢谢你。我承认我最近有点不像平时的自己。仿佛缺少了某样东西。也许因为缺乏了笑容。前几天我需要一份关心，安慰和支持，可是却没有。最近大家都很忙，也是时候让自己学会独立，学会让自己恢复起来。刚才差一点病倒，幸好我喝很多水。现在好多了。颖涵，你要加油哦！

存在？

今天，有人说我没有表情。我真的没有表情吗？说真的，我不知道。也不知道要给什么表情。如果有冒犯你们，很抱歉。对不起。我最近很累了。。。

Just to inform everyone that I will be less online after I did all the assignments.

Who am I

Just now someone said today I looked very happy. I got look very happy? Actually is the other way.

Anyway, no time to think anything. Hope these 2 weeks can past faster.

有时外表和内心是不一样的。

10th of August

Recently will not update my blog cus busy with assignments. Tired of my life.

冰泪草

传说，在寒冷的雪山上，生长着一种绿色的小草，每个叶片上都挂着一颗冻洁的泪珠，如果你有幸找到它，你就会知道自己的真爱在何方。。。。。。

女孩决定去山上寻找那颗传说中的冰泪草，男孩劝她不要去，太危险了，可女孩却似乎下定了决心，一定要去。男孩很无奈。便要求一同前往。。。

当晚，男孩去了公园。。。。。

要出发了，男孩为女孩套上外套，问女孩：

『 你确定要去吗？』

『是的！』女孩坚定地说。

『好吧！我们出发。。。』

山脚下，男孩温柔的为女孩整了整帽子，

『要上去吗？ 很危险的，不怕吗？』

『不怕！』女孩仍是那么坚定。

『那好吧，山上路滑，抓紧我的手！』

山腰上， 男孩看着雪中发抖的女孩，心疼地抱紧了她，

『 我们回去吧，看你冻得。。。。』

『我。。。。不回家！』女孩的脾气很倔。

『好吧，来我背你！』

山顶上，男孩脱下了自己的外衣，轻轻披在了女孩的身上，抚摸着女孩冻得有些发紫的脸说：

『回去好吗？现在回去天黑前还可以到家的，别再找了，根本没有那种草的。』

『不，再找找看，会找到的！』 女孩还是那么的固执。

『好吧，那就再找找看。。。。。。』

暴风雪来了，女孩慌了，风吹得她睁不开眼睛。慌乱中，紧握女孩的那只手突然松开了，女孩顿时失去了方向，只感到一股力量不断地把自己向上抬起。。。。。。

女孩醒了过来，发现男孩不见了。女孩无力地坐在地上哭了，她终于认识到了自己是多么的任性，自己的行为是多么的可笑。。。。。。。许久，女孩站了起来，突然发现脚下有一颗绿色的小草，薄薄的叶片上挂着几颗晶莹的冰珠。『冰泪草！』 女孩叫出了声。她捡起这棵小草，叫着男孩的名字，到处寻找着男孩。。。

女孩得救了，男孩却失踪了。

女孩永远也不会知道，在那棵冰泪草的下面，有一双还留有余温的手。。。。。。在暴风雨来临的那一刻，男孩用尽了所有的力气将女孩举了起来，女孩得救了，男孩却被埋在了下面。。。而那棵所谓的冰泪草，其实是男孩从公园里采来的。。。。。。上面的冰珠，就是女孩的泪。。。女孩不知道，其实她想寻在的真爱，一直都在她的面前，可她却没有珍惜。。。。。。

朋友们，你们的真爱在哪呢？？

以上的故事不是我写的，可是这是感动到我的故事。希望每个人都会珍惜身边的人。

Today morning just had chemistry practical exam. The experiment still ok but my calculation is bad. =.= Got to do more practice for it. Today ends my exam week. Now is assignment week. haiz...When can I have a rest?

很难受。

380 posts

Today at 34 minutes and 56 seconds past 12 the time and date will read 12:34:56 07/08/09 .
123456789 this won't happene again for another thousands years. but too bad. I miss it.

About the dancing class. I add in more details about that.

Day: friday
Time: 8-9pm
Place: Bukit Jalil club

If can, these few days don't too close to me. thank you.

6th of August 2009

Happy sweet 18th birthday to pei ling! Hope u have a wonderful birthday. Wish u all the best and always be happy.

Pei ling, I will be happy. Don't worry.

Got a recommendation for all of u. who wants to learn dancing? If anyone interested, please leave a comment at here then I will give further information.

Feeling like going to have sick soon. Hope I will not fall sick.

Exhausted + sleepy

Today morning woke up at 7 something. Yesterday slept at 11.30pm and had a nice sleep cus very tired. Woke up then continue to study cus yesterday didn't study finish. Anyway, not really study anything today.

After had my breakfast and took bath, then went to hotel istana where I had my piano exam. On the way to there, I was dreaming. Felt sleepy also. After half an hour, then we reached there. The hotel still ok but not as high class as other hotels. After register then waited at the waiting room. I was so nervous. After an hour, finally was my turn. The examiner quite good. Anyway, I didn't do my best. Don't know what happened to me.

After had my lunch with my family then went back to college to attend class and sit for exam. I was very sleepy at that time. Before had exam, went to buy chicken and cheese paratha to eat. After that, study for a while then went for exam. The exam was tough. I was very very sleepy at that time. 6.40pm only went back home. tiring.

我是幸运的, 比起很多人。终于看开了。会活得比从前更好。

Don't know why my left hand pain. Hope tomorrow will be ok.

Tomorrow not going to online. blogging not sure. Just wish me all the best on wednesday. Take care everyone.

加油！加油！加油！

3rd of August

Luckily I still can remember what date is today. Don't know what happened to me. Omg! My piano was terrible. Wondering how am I going to sit for the exam.

From this week onwards, I guess I will be very stress so sometimes maybe not in good mood. haha...

我的信心去了哪里？原本我已经找回它，可是现在好像又不见了。

Don't know how to write already. Too many things to write but I too tired already.

Just briefly said about what happened yesterday. First time learn driving was fun. But I don't like clutch. It made me shi huo many times. First time drove on the road was scary especially at roundabout. Although first time know how to drive, but also the first time I drove on the road.

Today went for 2nd driving lesson. haiz...not as easy as I think. Especially the bukit. I kept on do wrong and get scolded by instructor. It's ok. I am the beginner, sure will do wrong things. Just hope that in the exam I won't do wrong.

After I learned driving, then went to have lunch with family. After that, I went for dancing. I went to pei ling's house and her mum fetch me went to bukit jalil club. Thank you very much to her mum. Surprisingly, her mum thanked me for supporting her. Then, I said I should thank her. Another suprise is I saw Jia Wen and Chooi Yen. Long time didn't see them already. Felt happy when saw them.

I went back home at 5.30pm. I was tiring. Please don't say don't know or nothing.

1st of August

Today I had my first driving lesson. omg! shi huo for many times. wondering how am I going to take the exam.

11pm: Tired now. tomorrow only write more about today.

31st of July

Last day of July already. Time past so fast. Today not feeling well. Don't know why. In the afternoon had headache. After took nap then still the same but now ok already.

This week started to be busy. Tomorrow have my first driving lesson. Don't know what will happen cus recently I feel tired. Sleep early also the same. Take nap also the same. Don't know why.

Assignment, tests, lab assessment, exams going to start. Can't give up now.

Share something with u all. Today when english class we had a group work. Then, one of the group members need to present. I present for my group. After I present then teacher said she knows I am shy. I agree. haha...then she said I am brave. is it true?

10:36pm: Feel suffering and very tired now. Recently many people sick. Hope they will recover soon.

30th of July

Happy. I came back.

10:32pm: 原本我以为我可以开心起来了，可是原来不是。那只是短暂的11个小时。

Practical Assessment

Today had practical assessment for Physics. It was fun but we screamed when teacher said we still got 5 seconds. haha...Luckily we managed to pass up our report on time. glad to be in the same group with u all. Now only realise it is happy to be with u all. Full of laughter.

After had my discussion, then I went to find u all at orange. But I didn't eat. No appetite to eat. Kai ling sick already. She seems like very suffering. Hope she will get well soon. Then, we went to library. After that, we went to class.

Tomorrow oral presentation. Wish us all the best.

Talent time

wow! It was great. I really enjoy it. Many performances like piano performance, guitar performance, flute performance, violin performance, singing performance, dancing performance and last but not least gymanstic performance. Gymnastic performance was the best. It was amazing too.

颖涵，加油！

27th of July

始终还是想写部落格。过了两天了，可是我的心情还是那么低落。这次应该很难恢复吧！一直以来，我以为我的遭遇是最惨的。可是原来不是。有些事实是很残酷的。在别无选择的情况下，也只好接受。你们要加油哦！

Start to be busy from today onwards. 要更坚强。

我会从记忆里消失。 看不到笑容。

23th of July

Today morning my dad suddenly asked me whether I study until very tired. I was like har? why he suddenly asked this de? I looked very tired? I also don't know. Recently suffering for headache until my mind can't think of anything. Luckily today better already.

我变了吗? 思想改变了? 性格改变了？

11.21pm: 她为什么变成这样呢？我不明白，也不了解。我只知道她让我又回到了原点。

22th of July

Happy birthday to my dearest friend, Corine. Wish her all the best and stay pretty.

Really enjoy my break with mokky today. We had never met each other since 24th of last month. Quite a long time ago. Thank you very much for accompany me. We chat while eating. The funny part is when I was telling her about what had happened yesterday. It was all because of my sleepyness. Anyway, suffering for headache for the third day. Nothing much that I can think and say.

Suddenly remembered the worst thing that I knew today. Physics topic test is same day as my piano exam. Omg! Thinking I should study and go for the topic test or not. August will be a busy month.

Just took some facebook quizzes. One is who really understands me?

Guess what is the answer. Maybe it is true.

Another one is why do my friends love me?

The answer is kind. Is it true?

One more is what's my best quality?

Again is kindness. You will lend a helping hand to any friend you think needs it, and to everyone who you have helped they see you as a close friend who they appreciate and ready to return a favor. Your kindness is likely to earn you a reputation and make you the go-to person when your friends seek quality companionship.

Another one is what defines me?

My smart.( I don't think I am smart. ) Your pride yourself on your academics and your ability to learn things quickly. You will definitely succeed in life.

One more is what does my zodiac sign say about me?

Scorpio qualities. passionate, protective, magnetic, energetic, emotional, intense, tenacious, powerful, resourceful, attractive, investigative, diplomatic and courageous.

我的心为什么会那么痛？

现今社会是这样？
社会好像变得越来越乱。。
人为了自己，就要伤害无辜的人吗？
为什么人越来越可怕了呢？
为了利益不择手段而杀死无辜的人，值得吗？
难道一个好人的下场就是这样，让坏人逍遥法外？

在这里希望政府能查出事情的真相， 还赵明福一个清白。
安息。

那一天是新学年，也是小玲和小麦升上中学的第一天。她们来自不同的学校，可是那么巧她们读同一班。缘分让她们遇见和认识对方。由于她们刚来到陌生的环境，又没有旧朋友和她们同校，所以她们就在班上坐在一起。她们开始介绍对方，也聊了起来。小玲是个善良和充满创意的女生， 而小麦是个开朗和勤劳的女生。

过了几个月的相处，她们渐渐变成好朋友。由于她们住在附近，她们就一起上学，一起读书，一起玩乐，一起出去。久而久之，她们变成形影不离的好朋友。无论去到哪里，都可以看到她们时常在一起。

好景不常在。就在她们升上中四的那一年，小玲因为误会小麦而远离她。小麦当时很伤心，不明白小玲远离她的原因，也没有问她。也因为这样她们之间的误会越来越深。始终没有人肯踏出一步去了解一切的真相。她们开始很少和对方说话，也没有一起上学。久而久之，她们再也没有和对方说话了。

直到有一天，小麦才发现原来小玲是因为误会她而远离她。正当小麦想要解决她们之间的误会时，已经太迟了。小玲已经把她们的友谊给忘了。友情就像感情一样，一旦问题拖太久，就会变淡了。无论再怎么努力去挽回，也已经无可补救了。

就因为一场误会，而牺牲了她们三年的友情。小麦从那天起，一直过着伤心的生活。几年后，她无意间发现自己患上了癌症，而且是末期的脑癌。

欢迎大家给予任何意见。也欢迎大家给予心目中想要的结局和最适合这篇故事的题目。谢谢。

家是避风港。 不管任何时候， 家永远都会在那里。 无论人们去到哪里或去到多远的地方，最后还是会回到家。每个人都想有个家， 我也不例外。

家给人的感觉是温暖，幸福的。 可是却给我不想回家的感觉。宁愿待在外面，也不想回家。不能出去，也宁愿待在学校，不想那么早回家。

父母的严格是孩子们无法了解的。 父母越是要控制孩子的生活， 孩子就会越反抗。 久而久之，关系变得恶化。相信 孩子们都不喜欢父母处处管教。例如，不能出去， 手机在几点之前要交。

最让我觉得很疑惑的就是别人的家可以给我家的感觉， 可是我的家却没有。 有时会羡慕别人有了解他们，关心他们，体谅他们的父母。 多么希望我的父母能像其他父母一样。

我想有个快乐与幸福的家。 这是金钱所买不到的。

欢迎大家给予任何意见。谢谢。comment write in english also can.

Today woke up at 7.55am. After had breakfast, then went to college. First time study in the morning. good,right? The library's air-cond was so cold. After an hour, went out for a while. Cannot tahan the cold. Don't know why I felt so sleepy during physics class. Felt like want to sleep. At that time only I remembered I didn't eat medicine in the morning. swt! So forgetful.

Anyway, did a stupid thing. I shouldn't say that. Very sorry. Anyway, thank you for accompany me.

当认为什么事情都是美好的时候，就是有事情会发生的时候。为什么要那样怀疑我？

15th of July

Don't know how to write already. Life is it like this? Full of happiness and sadness. Tired but tons of homeworks. Luckily no need to pass up tomorrow. when sick will end? I can't withstand it anymore. Seems like the medicine also no use. Hope I can recover tomorrow.

My sick is getting worse and worse. what should I do?

Am I talk like very angry? I also don't know. maybe recently ate medicine so felt sleepy. So maybe will talk like very angry.

14th of July

Time past so fast. Now already July. 14th of every month quite important to me. Today my sick getting better. Don't know what is my feeling today. Happy? Sad? Depressed? Worry? Emo?

Have some ideas to write but don't know how to start it. Wondering I got enough time to finish it or not as recently homeworks are getting more and more. Somemore still got the Malaysian Studies assignment. I guess next month will be more busy.

After 3 days

I was worry in the morning. Finally I went to see doctor after suffering for the past few days. Hope I can recover soon.

Another sunday

Someone woke me up at 8.45am.=.= so early. After had my breakfast, went to bukit jalil park as usual. I was so sleepy at that time. Maybe because ate medicine after my breakfast. Just felt like want to have a sleep. Dad talked to me while we walked around. After that, mum wanted me to run so ran for a while. Almost fainted at there. Somemore when I was alone. Luckily didn't faint. After went back home, I slept for a while. Then, went to had lunch with my uncle and aunty. Luckily I got appetite to eat. After that, did homework. Took nap. Then, did homework again. Did the maths homework until I can't think anymore. After that, played piano then went out for dinner. Online at night but sleepy. Seems like the medicine really can make me keep on want to sleep.

Hate sick

Sick makes me eat anything also no taste. Can't do much things. Now I know what is the bad things of having sick.

Suffering

Today woke up early in the morning. My voices was so beautiful. Luckily after ate sweets and drink water, it became better. When I was memorising the script, Pei ling came and we chat for a while. Thank you very much for chatting with me.

Around 9am, I went to library discussion area. It was cold there. I felt so suffering because it made my flu became more serious. We discussed the script and did rehearsal at training room. It was fun. After that, went to class. Thank you very much for accompany me. Accounts class was boring. Somemore I was very sick. Felt like my brain can't function and wanted to sleep. Somemore it was cold and I had flu. Felt like can't breath in the air-cond room. I hope the class ended earlier but it ended a bit late. After finished class, I quickly went out. I can't stay in the air-cond room if not I will be more and more sick. After walked around, then I went back to class. Presentation still ok but I was quite blur. After that lecturer gave us comprehension to do. It was so difficult cus I don't understand the text. Seems like I had to work hard on it. The best medicine to me is you. Don't know why you can make me feeling well for a moment.

Although went back home at 2.40pm but I reached home at 3.30pm. After ate medicine, I took nap. When I woke up, I was not feeling well. I played piano then online for a while. After that, do homework. At that time, I had flu until want to have a sleep again. Hope I can recover soon.

9th of July

Tired. Got discussion after class until 5pm. Went back home at 5.30pm. Reached home at 5.45pm. tonight have to sleep early already cus too tired and not feeling well. Luckily I had my lunch before class. If not, no time to have lunch. Anyway, no appetite to eat also. Not feeling well. Maybe going to be sick. Anyway, I hope tomorrow I won't be sick and still have voices to talk. Wish my teammates and me all the best and good luck for our presentation. Hope everything will be fine and everyone can enjoy it.

Is going to end

Is going to end my online life. Should get used to it. Just now just can't control my feeling. People don't understand me. Sometimes I just wondering what I did wrong. why people can't just understand me? Even one time is better than none. I always tell myself " never mind. I already get used to it. " but in my heart I really hope that people can understand me.

8th of July

Stop thinking already. I was tired of it. Thank you very much for comfort me all the time. Sure tired of comforting me already because I always not ok. I know I not independant. I know not all problems will have the solution to solve it. That's why I shouldn't think of it anymore. Homeworks are getting more and more. Assignment is coming soon. Now already got the Malaysian studies assignment. =.= Somemore need us to do report and powerpoint presentation. Should have concentrate on my presentation on friday first. Wish me and my teammates all the best. ^^

7th of July

Don't know how to describe my feeling. What I can say is really stress.

Yesterday night only tell me that u haven't pay the fees. I was like what? Last week u said u pay for me. Now u asked me to pay. Last week I was thinking why just give me pay by myself. I thought is u don't trust me. Now only give me pay it. What is the difference between last week and yesterday? At that time I kept on cool down myself. I tell myself " ok, just forget about it. "

Another thing is I don't want to know about it already. I don't want to have that feeling anymore. I don't want to care it anymore.

One more thing is driving. I really no mood to learn driving. Already have lots of things need to do. Not I don't want to learn driving. Is I think now is not the suitable time to learn it. Eventhough now I learn it, I also can't drive. I still not understand why beginning of the year don't let me learn, now only let me learn. What is the difference between beginning of the year and now? I said the same thing for the second time because I really not understand. Don't want to think already. Anyway, piano exam is around the corner. Hope I can play it well.

6th of July

Have class like normal. Thank you very much for accompany me today. I appreciate it.

Have rehearsal for the presentation tomorrow. Saw another group did rehearsal. It is very funny. Start to be busy. Quite tired. Seldom online.

Wish good luck and all the best to all my teammates. Hope we can do it well.^^

what should I write?

5th of July

Today I went for 6 hours teori and amali talk. The teacher is very good. I like the way he taught. He makes the talk not so boring but funny. I kept on laughing. The first time I found out that a talk can be not boring also. 11.20am he let us to have our lunch. So early. After that, continue the teori section. After an hour, then finish the teori section. After that, amari section quite boring especially after change to another teacher to teach. The teacher not responsible. Not yet teach then ask someone to do this do that, ask us this is what this is what. Expect us to know. =.=

Anyway, not a good day to me. I was not in a good mood. I don't know why. Maybe recently something happened or i not enough sleep. Now still ok.

看来我应该要接受那事实了。虽然很难，可是也没办法啦。。。谁叫我是住在这间家。已经很累了。。

4th of July

Guess what time I woke up. 5.30am=.= I was so nervous. Since I woke up so early then I continue to study. After an hour, I went back to sleep again until 8.30am. After took bath and had my breakfast, then went for undang exam. I waited for an hour only reached my turn. 1 hour of daydreaming. When doing the question, I was quite nervous. After I finished it, I checked it again. Luckily I got check. If not, I wrong 1 question already. Finally I passed it. I can't believe it.

I have the feeling of home. Until now, I still don't understand why I can have the feeling of home at others house but not my house. I don't want a big house. I just want the feeling of home. But it seems like quite far to me. Since I was in secondary, I don't have that feeling anymore. I hope that I can go back to my old house. Although it is smaller but all memories and the feeling of home are there. Quite admire others who have friendly parents. Like everything also can talk about. Thank you very much for accompany me today.