30.11.10

Last day of November. Time past so fast. Almost 1 year had past. November not really a good month. Hope in the new month which is december, everything will be fine. Hope I also can go through all the assignments and exams. All the best to everyone who having exam now. gambatte=)

女孩的“随便”

如果女孩对你说了“随便”你知道是什么意思吗？
　　
　　那是说明女孩在乎你。
　　
　　有很多男生不懂的话，可能会以为女孩不想理他，不想跟他说话了，但其实不是那样的，越是那样就说明女孩越在乎你。
　　
　　如果以后挂电话的时候，女孩说了“随便”，请男孩不要挂电话，因为女孩一点也不想要挂电话。
　　
　　如果以后为女孩买东西，问女孩买什么，女孩说了“随便”，意思是只要是你送的都会喜欢。
　　
　　如果以后你们一起出去玩，问女孩玩什么，女孩说了“随便”，意思是只要和你在一起，哪里玩都无所谓。

你不在的时候

你知道吗？





你不在的时候
我很茫然……（因为不知道要和谁聊心事）



你不在的时候
我会胡思乱想……（想你是不是对我厌倦了）



你不在的时候
我有多想拿起电话打给你……（想听你的声音）



你不在的时候
没人能安抚我的情绪……（心情低落，需要你的安慰）



你不在的时候
我的心里有多么寂寞……（只有你，我才不会感到寂寞）



你不在的时候
想找你却又找不到……（我想你了）



你不在的时候
心里觉得我被你遗弃了……（因为你冷漠的态度）





一旦我向你抱怨

你一定会不耐烦

甚至觉得我不可理喻

对我大声地说

“都和你说我在忙了！你怎么还不明白！”

“难道我喝个茶都不行吗？！”

“我累了！不想和你解释那么多！”

“………………”



我不想那样

我不想和你有任何的误会

所以

就算我心里有多难受

我还是选择沉默



只 因 为
我 爱 你













情侣们

请不要忽略你另一半的感受

当你在忙的时候

请你用耐心的态度

和她/他好好说

尽量不要让她/他有被冷落的感觉

bored

hectic month

Thought last month was the hectic month, however this month is the most hectic month during the year. Lots of assignments due. 7 assignments due in 4 weeks time.

终

want to stop for a while. recovering from depression.

累了

very tired. just feel like want to sleep for whole day but it's impossible

发现

也许无法拥有的时候，才会发现别人的好。有些人总是替别人着想。只要别人开心，自己就会开心。处处为别人着想，却没为自己想过。那是因为她们看到别人开心就觉得满足。她们只为别人着想却忽略了为自己着想。因为这样她们使父母最担心。怕她们受伤害。

It's friday. maybe this time want to escape it for a while.

tired already. just want to be busy.

sometimes it's not the action that matters, it's the word that matters.

以为

以为只要习惯了心就不会冷，原来是不可能。

才知道

拥有是那么的难

对不起

Feel so sorry.

woke up early in the morning but waited for 3.30pm class=/

23.11.10

Celebrated my birthday with eu jin, pei ling and evonne at Breek, ioi mall. Thank you to Evonne for belanja me, the cake and the present. Thank you to pei ling and eu jin for attending and accompanying me. You guys are the best=)

personal feedback

what I think about this year birthday? Yeah, it's simple. Although nothing special and didn't receive many presents but I am happy. Happy in the way that it's simple.

what I thought didn't happen but 1 of my wishes come true. hehe...after it past, now I can tell what I think already. actually I thought of having birthday in such a way that there are many activities on that day like sing k, watch movie, play around, walk around. Anyway, luckily all that didn't happen, if not I will be exhausted as birthday that day also got submission for assignment.

last time may think that receiving present is better but now I don't wish to receive present already. Maybe think that it not necessary and may left aside if not using it.

Thank you very much to everyone for wishing me. I enjoyed my birthday this year=)

22.11.10 sms birthday wishes

5 sms birthday wishes I feel like want to share at here.

1st one: Happy 19th birthday wo buddy! wish u happy everyday n pretty always, keke..

I not pretty lo..and this msg makes me feel that person is so cunning

2nd one: Hahhhh peeeeee burrrffffff daeeeeee tooo yoouuuuu

In my mind, I was thinking apa ini?

3rd one: Hey ying han! HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY! Now youre legal to do all the naughty stuffs.

I felt so weird when saw this. 18th birthday should be 19th birthday although I wished I still 18. legal to do all the naughty stuffs sounds so wrong.

4th one: Happy birthday wor yin han

swt!!! my name not yin han=(

5th one: Happy birthday Ying Han! Err..I mean 'Ah Sou'

omg!!! I not 'Ah Sou', ok? I not that old leh..

List of ppl who wished me

1. yik yeen at msn

At fb
1. mrs. pang
2. james soo
3. haidy ng
4. sher yee
5. yvonne tan
6. suzanne leong
7. steven ng
8. evonne lee
9. atrius valentine
10. cheng ngah
11. grace tew
12. jeremy juliano'berry
13. justin lee
14. christine liew
15. li wen
16. chun pao
17. melvin siah
18. ruby teo
19. zhen jie
20. yee jin
21. kinz tee
22. elaine ho
23. mae yee lee
24. matthew lau
25. jessmin wong
26. tze kei
27. hui yin
28. yik yeen
29. yue yi
30. xiao qian
31. jia en
32. joyce
33. wan zhen
34. yin xie
35. huey ling
36. jun yu
37. deborah
38. jessie
39. chin yee
40. mee jing
41. yi sheng
42. cat meow
43. kimkim shawol
44. benneth
45. kar weng
46. dabie
47. angie
48. nicholas
49. eric chiang
50. chloe lim
51. corine
52. jack chung
53. alison
54. min hong
55. devika
56. yuee jhian
57. kelvin cheng
58. jia yao
59. jin yuan
60. wee sen
61. nicky kiki chan
62. kim hoong
63. kimmy lee
64. vicki yen
65. jeffrey chew
66. carolyn
67. shawn haha
68. xiu ting
69. fishy lebron
70. joon leng
71. talitha shim
72. wei yine
73. felicia ting
74. hui ying
75. wai hong
76. boon keng
77. ying fang
78. siew khei
79. zhunchieh
80. au yong choon hou
81. perly goh
82. crystal loo
83. alan foo
84. sizwjzin din
85. ada chua
86. jin qing
87. kelly tang
88. won hui
89. laila majnu
90. lei yang
91. wall le monoct
92. joann gan
93. vince foong
94. utkarsh mittal
95. cheryl lyl
96. liee ong
97. josie khaw
98. hui min
99. ying jia
100. kai ling
101. swan lee
102. kenny khew
103. sok fan
104. jesslyn lim
105. samantha
106. ying hui
107. weng hoe
108. esther tang
109. aini sufia
110. sheau jia
101. draculaeo demon
102. lynn yukiko
103. miko lim
104. chee theng lee
105. ben chiah
106. jimmyce lim
107. pei fenn
108. ruby tang
109. chai mei
110. hui teng
111. shobbini
112. caden gan
113. adele teo
114. eddie chuah
115. elaine tan
116. michelle lim
117. hn nth
118. soon yew
119. tan chuen
120. melisa
121. sheau thong
122. xiiao yiing
123. ishita
124. rachel tan
125. chooi yen
126. ke xin
127. kelvin lee
128. veronica tan
129. zhi kuan
130. fu xiang hoo
131. hang sia
132. sheena foo
133. patrick
134. ying xian
135. see chin
136. suzzaine foo
137. gerwince pwen
138. mei lin
139. caryn chang
140. wan teen
141. wan yi
142. lawrence
143. janasudha kumar
144. sot-plug steffi
145. cocoa hau
146. kenny chong
147. xian ky
148. 展文
149. kian heng
150. amy tan
151. elaine lee
152. eu jin
153. leeling gan
154. fui yen
155. chiew lee
156. yan jing
157. jeremy tham
158. zhen zhe
159. qi xuan
160. cheng li tan
161. hwee sann
162. helmi zulkifli

22.11.10

Slept for an hour plus last night. had to sleep late and woke up early in order to finish assignment. Due to her high requirements, I had changed it for many times. I still remember at 4 something, I said I want to sleep, she asked me finished already. omg!! she gave me at 3 something, then expect me to finish in an hour.

After finished assignment, replied some posts. Went to class at 1.30pm. After class, replied some posts also then only went to ioi. The first thing I went to there is find things to eat. Since I wanted to eat cake, so I went to secret recipe. Looked at all the cakes, I felt like trying some of them but I tried one only-chocolate walnut cake.

Went to popular to look for something. Watched harry potter movie after that. This was the 2nd time I watched harry potter movie. The movie not really nice as it was quite boring.

pre-birthday

Received a few shocking wishes this year. First, received birthday wishes from yik yeen at msn the day before my birthday. Felt so shocked, surprised and touched. Second, received birthday wishes from my standard six class teacher. This really surprises me. Third, received my bro's birthday wishes just after 12am. That really really make me felt very surprise. Fourth, received a birthday wishes during midnight around 3am from my college friend. That even make me feel so surprised and shocked. Lastly, received a birthday wishes from another college friend in an unexpected way. Thanks a lot to everyone who wished me. Very happy to receive all your wishes and really appreciate it=)

21.11.10

A boring sunday. Although I wished for something, but it seems like everyone is busy. So, I decided to deliver a present and went to walk around alone. Saw sankary in an unexpected way. We chatted a lot although just a while only. Wish her and all my friends who taking spm or stpm all the best in their exams from tues onwards. lots of luck from me=)

看起来

look like bored? Yea, actually a bit.

Today my bf celebrated my birthday with me earlier. Thank you very much to him. Although it is simple but I love the lucky draw. I always chose the try again one=/ so unlucky but I really enjoy choosing it. to him, I think would be a terrible thing as I so undecisive. hope he didn't get mad on it.

想

很多话很想说却不知道怎么说。

how I wish I can go to a place where I can forget everything. wish to travel around for a few days.

幸福

当被疼爱和被在乎的时候，有时候很想大声说我是最幸福的人=）

Don't know can hold it for how long. No idea why some of them have so good impression on them. Is it i can't feel/see? Last time no matter what I will find ways to hold it on. but now, I just can't find a single way to hold it on. Is something missing? or that way no use already? Every hurt is a scar after that. How much scar shows that there are how much hurt I got.

super super fan

Singapore trip part 2

Day 3

Went to Arab Street. Dropped by at a small shopping complex. It's still 9 something so not much shops were opened yet.




Sultan Mosque was located at there. After that, we went to Asian Civilisation Museum.

After that had lunch at Mc Donald. At there, there not called medium size or large size. They called down size or up size. The cashier always will say up size? At first, my friend asked the cashier is it medium. The cashier answered yea. BUT, it actually is large size. Omg!!I called my favourite burger- Mc Chicken=)
yummy~yummy~

After finished lunch, we went to Arab Peranakan Museum. This was the last stop for the day. After that was free time. During free time, some of my friends went to Orchard Street but I didn't go. My another friend and I went to national library to search for information for our assignments. We stayed at there from 5 something to 9pm. And yet, we didn't have our dinner until we went back to our resort. We ate maggie after we back to our room.

Nian Yu's 19th belated birthday celebration

Birthday girl. Happy belated birthday to her=)




3 buddies




Evonne and me




Sher Yee and me




Pei Ling and me

Singapore trip part 1

Singapore Trip 11/11/10-14/11/10

Day 1
Had 10 hours journey. Finally, reached at costa sand resort, downtown east. Had dinner at the shopping mall next to our resort.

Day 2
8am departed from resort. Went to hindu temple first.



Followed by a church and a mosque.



After lunch, we went to chinatown and temples.


Before we went bugis street, we went to national library. In the evening, we went to a food court in a shopping mall nearby bugis street. After finished dinner, we went to bugis street. At bugis street, almost everything being sold at SD10 for dress, 3 watches, keychain and so on.

P/s: Not much pictures on the day 1 and day 2 due to camera no battery.

会想起

试着把它给忘了。虽然还是会想起，可是没那么痛了。

我回来了

so hope that I can still stay at there. It was so nice, fun, tiring and unforgettble=)

当你

突然想起王心凌的一首歌-当你。

can I forget everything? being left behind was just like a nightmare.

忘记

want to forget everything. forget all the sorrow. forget all the bad things.

只能说美好的东西没有永远的。就像关系一样，忽近忽远也会有那么一天经不起考验。

08-11-10

Friendship will change because of distance. At first, I thought it was just what i think. But, it somehow now being proved by reality. Maybe should have listen to another friend's advice. She seems enjoy her life at there so no point asking. When she wants to find, she will automatically find by herself.

Ya, shouldn't find her at all. However, still decided to find her this time.Just a concern but it ended up with her complaint about her life which really unexpected. It also let me suddenly recall back what she did on that night. How can she said that. I don't mind what other ppl said but she just same like others, said things without knowing more about it. Really very unexpected and yet I still can't forget about it.

As she wanted to know more about what happened to us throughout the year but no initiative to know from her so no point telling all the things as it doesn't make much difference.

It going to become past. Once she was the closest but ended up as the normal one.

第一次

Ate baskin robbin ice-cream for the first time. It tasted different than the normal one.

第二次

This was the second time we went to Klang this week. Had dinner with aunty, uncle and cousins.

也许有些事不能勉强。当想不通的时候，就放在一边让它顺其自然。

生活作息

生活作息颠倒。最近不知怎么了。早睡一点的时候，却特别早醒。

06-11-10

Today pei ling came to my house to study. We really study.

Anyway, we got chat when we had lunch. When she knew I have 6-7 assignments due on this month, she was so shocked. haha...I still can remember her reaction.

After 3 hours of study, we went to the garden nearby my house. we jogging and chatting at there.

There's called a day.

wish I can have my own 写真集

真实

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，即使让她生气也不会超过2天！

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她……

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她……

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她……

于是，你们总莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福……

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美~

因为她喜欢你，所以才偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以才会生你的气；

而又是因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气那么久。

你可知道，每个女孩的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害！

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得让她哭的那个人根本舍不得让她哭……

她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着“你走开”，心里却一直叫你留下。

请竖起你的耳朵，也请打开你的心，去听她内心真正的呼唤吧，而不是她嘴里的口是心非！

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身；当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，那是滂沱在心里的泪~

如果你喜欢她，请多陪陪她；如果你喜欢她，请多宠宠她；如果你喜欢她，请多让让她……

如果你真的喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是一种呐喊！请你张开臂膀拥抱她！

在爱情世界里，你们总是彼此伤害着，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈，爱到轰轰烈烈！

可是，爱情没有孰对孰错，更没有你比我多我比你少的概念。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够，不要试图让彼此受伤，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。

你们彼此相爱需要的是温暖、是幸福、是甜蜜、是快乐，而不是伤害。

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就漠然离去。

要知道，当你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光……

越是安静，战火就越传，这是冷战，也是彼此的伤害。无论以后怎么的复合，那些伤口是曾经存在的，是你怎么也抹不去的……

请给她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠、转身的无声安静。

请记住，相爱的人不要宣战，因为带来的伤害超出你的预计。

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子、所有的坏脾气、所有的臭毛病在你眼里都是撒娇。

也请记住，她喜欢你，需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她真心话。

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她……

哪怕，没有道歉……

屠妖节

Went to klang in the afternoon. Had lunch at one of the bak kut teh restaurant. Long time no eat already. Had been staying at home for past few weekends.


Went to aunty's house after that. One of her child is so naughty.





Went to bukit jalil park in the evening. Had dinner at one of the restaurant at Petaling Jaya.

And yet, listened to music and wrote something during the night.

没有永远

没有东西是永远的。

went to SMK Sultan Abdul Samad for filming. The school very nice and different from my secondary school. Wore my pinafore for the first time after graduate. haha, i still can wear it and it seems like longer a bit. lol, i grow shorter?

After finished filming, went to Jaya One for brunch. We ate at the mamak stall.

03-11-10

A day to remember. Slept very late as too many things need to be done. Gonna have a long day tomorrow.

Thank you very much to sher yee and pei ling for coming to campus to visit me=)

微笑

我会微笑地面对每一天，珍惜也许会改变的东西，不执着而伪装看不见。

I will be fine till 20 days later=)

Just gonna stand there watch it left
but that's alright because I know it will be like this
I know it will be like this

帮助

我会尽我的全力去帮助。希望有一天能克服那问题。

1-11-10

A boring day. Wish have a wonderful life this month=)