31st of August

I almost forgot today is national day. Maybe because not much celebration this year. I even thought today is sunday.

Sometimes hurt can make people sad, can make people cry but it may make people become brave too. Thank you for the hurt because it trains me. To me, cry is the way to forget all the sad moments and release stress. That's why I so forgetful and always cry. Actually there are some ways to forget all the sad moments but need to find a suitable way is not so easy. Sometimes need to depend on people, sometimes it is just between want or don't want. Sharing your sad moments with your friends or someone that u trust also may make u feel better. I did it before. If I can choose, living beside the sea is the best cus there is a way.

It is hard to forget sad moments but time can let it past or heal the pain. I tried it before. Now thinking back it is just a part of my life. Pain will go. Anyway, the hurt still in the heart. Some songs may let people felt sad or depressed because they are meaningful to them or describing something which is similar to their life. Whenever listen to that song, it will roll down the cheeks without knowing what is the reason.

大人的世界

原来大人的世界没有想像中那么的简单。工作的压力，income tax, 烦恼钱，上司给的压力，房屋贷款，油费，生活费。。。

还是读书比较好。虽然有压力，有烦恼，可是都会比大人的压力和烦恼还要少。多么希望不用长大，能寻找我的童年。因为一点童年的记忆都没有的我觉得很空虚。很奇怪的事是我却记得妹妹的童年。有很多考试来临，要加油了。

今天探望姑姑。看她憔悴，担心和不开心的样子，让人心疼。姑姑，看开点，不要担心， 也不要自责了。希望您能开心起来。

有时应该去察觉别人对你的付出。珍惜别人对你的付出。珍惜眼前人，不要等到失去了才来后悔。

Changes part 3 continue

Sure have changes in life. When think back of what I did last time, it was so funny and didn't know why I would do that during that time. Mostly was during primary school. Don't know whether u all familiar with this word or not.( 绝交)

Some people had changed but some people still remain the same. I really want to know last time what kinds of person am I. Good or bad also can. Feel free please leave a comment. Thank you for all the comments.

Changes part 3

Have I change? Last time I was serious? Just knew that I was serious last time. I didn't know that until someone told me that.

I admit that last time I was too quiet. Maybe because of that so let others think that I am serious. I never serious before.

难以形容的感觉

what happened? suddenly it rolling down the cheeks.

原来受了的伤是不可能像以前一样。 它会是一个伤痕，或是一个阻碍。

Friday?

Yesterday had many nightmare. Woke up for 3 times. Not a good friday. Had english test. Don't know what I wrote.

Tomorrow not going out. Not going anywhere also.

有时伤害会不自觉的发生。有时伤害到别人可是自己没察觉。

27th of August

Woke up at 6.10am. So early,right? But I went back to sleep until 8.15am. In the morning, I was not sleepy at all. After the physics class, I was almost in the dream. During exam, I was sleepy and blur. However, very surprised that this is the first time I finished it before the exam ended. 13 minutes. I was like har? 13 minutes staring on the paper. Luckily I didn't fall asleep. Today also the first time I so late went back home. 6.50pm still at the college. Luckily pei ling chat with me. If not, I will be daydreaming at there.

Don't know what happened to me.Very tired and felt like vomiting.

Busy Wednesday

Today I was so forgetful. Keep on forget to do this or that. Like lost of memory.

A few announcement. I don't have Malaysian studies class anymore. Just wait for the exam. Seems quite a lot of people ask me when is my holiday. So, just to inform u all that my holiday starts on 25th of September.

25th of August

400 posts. Sleepy. Today english class we watched a movie called the bird cage at seminar room. Quite funny. I freezed in the room. Anyway, my friends and I late for the following class. Luckily teacher didn't scold. Had lab assessment. I was very sleepy at that time.

Hope everyone will be fine. Take care.

Blog

Actually didn't feel like blogging but don't know why I still open the blog and write a post. Maybe it has been a way to help me remember what had happened and express what I think or feel. Blog. Maybe to some of u, blog is a way to express feelings. In my opinion, I think it is not a good way to express anger through blog cus we won't know who see it and we won't know what others feel when they read the post. Maybe they may change their mind on your first impression after reading it.

Recently don't know what happened to me. Past two days felt like want to vomit. Yesterday and today felt very tired. Easy to be tired. Don't know why feel like want to be alone.

21st of August

Today was the first time for accounts class ended earlier, 11.55am. After that, went to library. Unfortunately, most of the computers was used by people. Since the day can access facebook in the library, the computer areas always crowded with people. I went to search some books. Unfortunately, it was missing. I was hungry at that time so I went to eat hakka mee. Quite nice.

Recently don't know why not feeling well. Very weak.

First year have oral exam for Ausmat. 20% for it. The oral exam is technology based. It means we use webcam for oral exam. It sounded quite nice but it is not that easy. Have to be serious on it. If fail, then it may affects a lot. Still got a month for me to prepare. Wish me all the best.

Knew a sad news. Someone that I knew kena H1N1. Hope there will be no any sad news anymore. Everyone must take care of yourself. Bye.

Changes part 2

People will change in certain stages. No matter how people change, we have to accept. We can't change them but we can advise them. We can't say we don't like their changes. We also can't express our feeling that we disagree on their changes. Everyone will change but in the different way. We can't expect people will change according to what we want. Although people change to bad or not the way u want, but is their choice. We can't stop them and ask them to follow the way we want. It is not fair to them. Perhaps they have to their rights to change the way they want and do what they want.

Life is going to change when is the time to change. Sometimes we just don't know it. Finally they agree with me that I shouldn't take this course. Anyway, it is not the time to regret. I not regret with it. Although it is not suitable to me, but can't give up halfway. Need to continue and finish it. Now what I should do is do my best.

I am glad to have an understanding english lecturer and some friends. They really bring me lots of happiness. Eventhough not in a happy mood but can smile when they say something really funny. Still got not much time to be with u all. Now already finish maths and accounts syllabus. Wish u all all the best. Take care.

Ever close to it

Almost fainted at house yesterday. Luckily I was ok after I took nap. Woke up from nightmare after slept for 1 and a half hour. If not the nightmare, I also don't know I sleep until when already.

20th of August

Just want to inform u all that I not going to online during this weekend. Anything just sms me. thank you. Take care everyone.

Changes

Changes. In a certain stage, people sure will change. We can't think that people won't change forever since the day we know them. In between, we sure will go through some hurdles and obstacles. After we had gone through all of them, we may change ourselves or change our thinking. Life also may change because of some reasons. My life will change since the day I left my secondary school. I knew it after half year had gone. Within this half year, many things had happened. Happy things, sad things, troubles, hurdles, assignment, presentation, debates and exams. All had happened. Sometimes we just didn't realise it. We mumbling why our life is so bad but we didn't realise that happiness is always with us and someone just always beside us and care us. Appreciate all the things we have before we lose it.

Finally finished all the classes. Wednesday is the longest class. Suffer for it and waiting the time to pass. Sleepy although yesterday slept early. Don't know what happened to me. Kept on ha chiuk since afternoon until just now. Luckily now ok already.

18th of August

suffering

Pray hardly that I won't be the unlucky one.

17th of August

Today 2 classes no class. Anyway, had applics discussion during applics class. After that, physics class cancel then went to library. Then, had lunch with mokky. Nice porridge. I long time didn't eat that already.

After had my chemistry class, then had test at mph. I did the most stupid thing. I took lift to 3rd floor. But when reached 1st floor, the door opened then I went out. so stupid la...Luckily I realised it is 1st floor and that person press the button and I went back to the lift. I was like so....

Had traffic jam when on the way back to home. I hate traffic jam. When I reached home, straightaway went for piano class. So rush. Luckily I finished my piano exam already. If not, had to play the pieces, scales..... Now no need to play all that already.

If can, these few days don't too close to me.

我宁愿不要知道那事实。

15th of August

I can control already. Although it is hard but is a good improvement. I know I am not clever. Don't expect me to know anything that I don't know. I not genius. It is a fact. So I need to work harder than others. I have not good memory also. Hope I won't fall sick for these few weeks. All the best to all my friends who having exam next week.

Sorry no cure

I think everyone quite familiar with this phrase sorry no cure. In my opinion, if sorry can cure everything then there will be no quarrel, no argument and no hurt.

1 hour again. Today morning (saturday) I woke up at 6.45am. So early. Why I woke up so early? Woke up by my mum because I got driving lesson at 7.30am. I kept on do wrongly then as usual will have volcano. =.= Somemore, my sis yesterday scolded ppl then is my time to have trouble. It is normal.

Silly me

I didn't know that I have left my pendrive at library yesterday. Thank you very much to my friend. Luckily u use that computer after me.

#累垮了。。我能肯定自己，可是我不能肯定别人。

口是心非

人难免会口是心非。不知从几时开始也变成了我的习惯。也许是因为某些原因。最近很累。不知道为什么感觉自己很弱。也许因为忙或太多压力吧！当要放弃的时候，我的心还是那么的坚强。曾经有人说我的名字可以换成硬汉。哈哈。。我还记得很清楚。相信那个人也记得吧！很想念以前读中学的日子。很开心，很有趣，很难忘。还记得以前spm 之前很少人去学校，老师就没有教书。我们就一大班人围在一起聊天。那种感觉真的很棒！可是时间不会倒流的，所以只能当作是美好的回忆。雨最了解人的想法和心情。雨，谢谢你。我承认我最近有点不像平时的自己。仿佛缺少了某样东西。也许因为缺乏了笑容。前几天我需要一份关心，安慰和支持，可是却没有。最近大家都很忙，也是时候让自己学会独立，学会让自己恢复起来。刚才差一点病倒，幸好我喝很多水。现在好多了。颖涵，你要加油哦！

存在？

今天，有人说我没有表情。我真的没有表情吗？说真的，我不知道。也不知道要给什么表情。如果有冒犯你们，很抱歉。对不起。我最近很累了。。。

Just to inform everyone that I will be less online after I did all the assignments.

Who am I

Just now someone said today I looked very happy. I got look very happy? Actually is the other way.

Anyway, no time to think anything. Hope these 2 weeks can past faster.

有时外表和内心是不一样的。

10th of August

Recently will not update my blog cus busy with assignments. Tired of my life.

冰泪草

传说，在寒冷的雪山上，生长着一种绿色的小草，每个叶片上都挂着一颗冻洁的泪珠，如果你有幸找到它，你就会知道自己的真爱在何方。。。。。。

女孩决定去山上寻找那颗传说中的冰泪草，男孩劝她不要去，太危险了，可女孩却似乎下定了决心，一定要去。男孩很无奈。便要求一同前往。。。

当晚，男孩去了公园。。。。。

要出发了，男孩为女孩套上外套，问女孩：

『 你确定要去吗？』

『是的！』女孩坚定地说。

『好吧！我们出发。。。』

山脚下，男孩温柔的为女孩整了整帽子，

『要上去吗？ 很危险的，不怕吗？』

『不怕！』女孩仍是那么坚定。

『那好吧，山上路滑，抓紧我的手！』

山腰上， 男孩看着雪中发抖的女孩，心疼地抱紧了她，

『 我们回去吧，看你冻得。。。。』

『我。。。。不回家！』女孩的脾气很倔。

『好吧，来我背你！』

山顶上，男孩脱下了自己的外衣，轻轻披在了女孩的身上，抚摸着女孩冻得有些发紫的脸说：

『回去好吗？现在回去天黑前还可以到家的，别再找了，根本没有那种草的。』

『不，再找找看，会找到的！』 女孩还是那么的固执。

『好吧，那就再找找看。。。。。。』

暴风雪来了，女孩慌了，风吹得她睁不开眼睛。慌乱中，紧握女孩的那只手突然松开了，女孩顿时失去了方向，只感到一股力量不断地把自己向上抬起。。。。。。

女孩醒了过来，发现男孩不见了。女孩无力地坐在地上哭了，她终于认识到了自己是多么的任性，自己的行为是多么的可笑。。。。。。。许久，女孩站了起来，突然发现脚下有一颗绿色的小草，薄薄的叶片上挂着几颗晶莹的冰珠。『冰泪草！』 女孩叫出了声。她捡起这棵小草，叫着男孩的名字，到处寻找着男孩。。。

女孩得救了，男孩却失踪了。

女孩永远也不会知道，在那棵冰泪草的下面，有一双还留有余温的手。。。。。。在暴风雨来临的那一刻，男孩用尽了所有的力气将女孩举了起来，女孩得救了，男孩却被埋在了下面。。。而那棵所谓的冰泪草，其实是男孩从公园里采来的。。。。。。上面的冰珠，就是女孩的泪。。。女孩不知道，其实她想寻在的真爱，一直都在她的面前，可她却没有珍惜。。。。。。

朋友们，你们的真爱在哪呢？？

以上的故事不是我写的，可是这是感动到我的故事。希望每个人都会珍惜身边的人。

Today morning just had chemistry practical exam. The experiment still ok but my calculation is bad. =.= Got to do more practice for it. Today ends my exam week. Now is assignment week. haiz...When can I have a rest?

很难受。

380 posts

Today at 34 minutes and 56 seconds past 12 the time and date will read 12:34:56 07/08/09 .
123456789 this won't happene again for another thousands years. but too bad. I miss it.

About the dancing class. I add in more details about that.

Day: friday
Time: 8-9pm
Place: Bukit Jalil club

If can, these few days don't too close to me. thank you.

6th of August 2009

Happy sweet 18th birthday to pei ling! Hope u have a wonderful birthday. Wish u all the best and always be happy.

Pei ling, I will be happy. Don't worry.

Got a recommendation for all of u. who wants to learn dancing? If anyone interested, please leave a comment at here then I will give further information.

Feeling like going to have sick soon. Hope I will not fall sick.

Exhausted + sleepy

Today morning woke up at 7 something. Yesterday slept at 11.30pm and had a nice sleep cus very tired. Woke up then continue to study cus yesterday didn't study finish. Anyway, not really study anything today.

After had my breakfast and took bath, then went to hotel istana where I had my piano exam. On the way to there, I was dreaming. Felt sleepy also. After half an hour, then we reached there. The hotel still ok but not as high class as other hotels. After register then waited at the waiting room. I was so nervous. After an hour, finally was my turn. The examiner quite good. Anyway, I didn't do my best. Don't know what happened to me.

After had my lunch with my family then went back to college to attend class and sit for exam. I was very sleepy at that time. Before had exam, went to buy chicken and cheese paratha to eat. After that, study for a while then went for exam. The exam was tough. I was very very sleepy at that time. 6.40pm only went back home. tiring.

我是幸运的, 比起很多人。终于看开了。会活得比从前更好。

Don't know why my left hand pain. Hope tomorrow will be ok.

Tomorrow not going to online. blogging not sure. Just wish me all the best on wednesday. Take care everyone.

加油！加油！加油！

3rd of August

Luckily I still can remember what date is today. Don't know what happened to me. Omg! My piano was terrible. Wondering how am I going to sit for the exam.

From this week onwards, I guess I will be very stress so sometimes maybe not in good mood. haha...

我的信心去了哪里？原本我已经找回它，可是现在好像又不见了。

Don't know how to write already. Too many things to write but I too tired already.

Just briefly said about what happened yesterday. First time learn driving was fun. But I don't like clutch. It made me shi huo many times. First time drove on the road was scary especially at roundabout. Although first time know how to drive, but also the first time I drove on the road.

Today went for 2nd driving lesson. haiz...not as easy as I think. Especially the bukit. I kept on do wrong and get scolded by instructor. It's ok. I am the beginner, sure will do wrong things. Just hope that in the exam I won't do wrong.

After I learned driving, then went to have lunch with family. After that, I went for dancing. I went to pei ling's house and her mum fetch me went to bukit jalil club. Thank you very much to her mum. Surprisingly, her mum thanked me for supporting her. Then, I said I should thank her. Another suprise is I saw Jia Wen and Chooi Yen. Long time didn't see them already. Felt happy when saw them.

I went back home at 5.30pm. I was tiring. Please don't say don't know or nothing.

1st of August

Today I had my first driving lesson. omg! shi huo for many times. wondering how am I going to take the exam.

11pm: Tired now. tomorrow only write more about today.