看清了改变与事实

以前的我是被受保护的。不知从几时开始，我不在被受保护了。原本我以为那只是一瞬间，没想到却变成了事实。

培训营

Today quite fun. Long time didn't laugh until stomach pain le...Played lots of games to prepare for the camp. If got chance, hope can play it with friends.

它又在发作了。take care.

今天的你，快乐吗？

一点也不快乐。哭过了，觉得好多了。我还能撑多久呢？我真的不知道。只有尽力而为吧！

Want to wish hui le happy birthday. wish her stay pretty, all the best and always be happy. don't know what u felt today but hope u like it and really felt happy on the celebration.

多余

到今天我才知道原来我是多余的。每次都是我最后一个知道。原来对别人来说我一点也不重要。算了吧。。我要找回坚强的我。

蛋糕

知道为什么蛋糕在生日的时候是那么的重要吗？ 因为有了蛋糕，才能许下生日愿望。大多数都会许三个愿望，而我只许下一个愿望。

有些话想对她说。有些东西不值得去等待。因为在等待的过程，只让自己更痛苦。虽然她没有说出口，可是我感觉得到。毕竟我曾经经历过，所以我知道那是什么感觉。说真的，虽然她表面上若无其事，可是看到的人都会心疼。心疼为什么她会得到那样的对待。心疼为什么帮不上忙。心疼她为什么让自己那么痛苦。心疼她为什么总是隐藏心里面的痛苦。现在是时候让她做自己的决定。早一点面对比迟一点来的好。决定让自己继续痛苦和等待，还是选择面对，让自己自由。这个就由她自己来回答。自己好好想吧！一旦决定了，就不要再犹豫，也不要后悔。加油吧！我挺她。记得我随时都可以给予帮助和安慰。

It comforts me whenever I want. Today midnight i sure need it.

礼物

presents that I received

18th birthday

Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to you. Happy birthday to ying han. Happy birthday to you. I still remembered it in my mind. Although not very suprised but it was very nice. Thank you very much to corine, sher yee, pei ling, eu jin and hock him gave me surprise.

1st person who wished me: Wan Zhen (4/11/2009)
she wished me on her birthday. she also wished me again on my birthday too

2nd: Sher Yee (5/11/2009)
she gave me present on that day. somemore said she can't celebrate with me on my birthday cus going out with family. do u think i will believe? She also wished me happy birthday on 20th and 22nd of november.

3rd: Joon Leng (18/11/2009)
she gave me present on that day too. she can say is my close friend at college. don't know why whenever I felt sad, she will always be there for me. Although she didn't know I felt sad, but she is the one who makes me happy again. So I called her as cheerful girl.

4th: Prasila (20/11/2009)
She is my close classmates and friend at college. I received the greatest present. We went to Sunway Pyramid on that day. First, we went to buy movie ticket. She said she belanja me as my birthday present. Then, we went for lunch at pizza hut. She belanja me again as my birthday present. All this was unexpected. This is what I called surprise. We also took some pictures at there and college. Anyway, pictures not with me now so can't show to u all.

To be continue.....

机会

机会是要自己争取的。有时候机会就只有那么的一次。如果错过了，也许会后悔。

Recall back what had happened during 22nd November of last year. It was an unforgettable day. I was left alone at home on that night. From that day onwards, I don't like leaving alone. I hate the feeling of dumping. Anyway, the feeling was around me. It was the sadest feeling.

Recently I knew I kept on let myself to be busy. Let myself don't have time to think of anything. Although don't know what is the reason but most probably is a way to don't think of any sad thing.

Just a few days went out then said I everyday went out. Swt! I just went out with friends for 2 days only. These was what I did on past few nights.

Monday night: at home
Tuesday night: dancing. online
Wednesday night: camp meeting. online
Thursday night: awards night. online
Friday night: online
Saturday night: camp meeting. online

Don't like people control me. don't want to say words which can hurt people. I knew what is the feeling if hurt by people.

2011

2011. It was not the year. It was today date and month. Thank you very much to prasila.

Forget to tell u all that this holiday can't come to my house cus something is going on which is repair and renovation. So sorry about that.

last day at Sunway College

Last day at Sunway College have many feelings.



Chin Yee and me

Haiz...she lost her laptop on wednesday evening around 6.30pm. I just went back home. If I was at there, I sure will help her to catch the bad guy. Hope she can found back it.

thinking

Received the second present. I like it. It was from Joon Leng. Thank you very much to her. Quite surprised that she remembered it.

Thinking about that until felt so depressed. Luckily now I had some ideas already. Got to know myself more. Going to leave it soon. Take care everyone.

累但快乐的一天

Fist day of holiday. Super boring. Luckily went to Pei Ling's house and went for dancing. Anyway, bring trouble to pei ling which makes me feel quite guilty. At night only went back home. I felt so tired and sleepy.

It's over

Finally it is over. Anyway, it ended badly. First time felt that ACCOUNTS is worse than PHYSICS. Now say anything also meaningless. Overall still ok.

Analysis:

Physics: still ok. almost same level as previous exam.

Eald: Although not enough time to write the essay but I really did my best for the listening.

Chemistry: I thought it was the worst but it is not. Anyway, not enough time to write the essay too.

Applics: still ok. not that hard that I thought.

Accounts: The worst exam ever.

That's all. Don't think about it already. Just enjoy holiday first.Take care everyone.

过不了那一关

我还是过不了自己那一关。 最后还是回到原点。

以泪洗脸

Please stop giving the cold shoulder to us. Cold shoulder just bring the sadness. Don't know whether they know it or not. It is not fun at all. It also won't bring happiness too. All it brings is SADNESS. Sometimes it will be a HURT too. Maybe they just think it is just a normal action. However, it is like a hurt, hurt our deepest heart. No matter what we do, it is still remain in the heart. Crying should be the best way to feel better. But I think some of u may think that crying is not a good way. Sometimes there is no reason behind it.

被丢下的感觉

被丢下的感觉真的很难受。去年的那一天却不幸发生了。还以为那是第一次，也是最后一次。可是却发生了好几次。

Nian Yu's birthday

Happy birthday to nian yu. We did it although we had limited time.^^

消失的彩虹

Sorry to the pink girl. I knew u calling me but sorry that I didn't respond. Anyway, thank you for your caring although I not sure who are u.

应该读什么

Quantitative surveyer? Actuaral science? Biotech? Bioscience?

Please stop asking me what to study. It is so annoying and suffer when don't know what to do and how to answer.

雨天

Don't know why recently I was so down.

一半

when can I drive?

低落

Felt so down. Anyway, thank you for my brother for making me happy. At least I still can laugh from my heart. I even laugh until my back and stomach was so pain. Hoping for the days after exam. Life without online and facebook is so boring and suffering.

The first present

Surprise? Yesterday I received the first present from mokky. Quite suprised about that. Anyway, I was too exhausted until don't know what to say. Anyway, thanks a lot to mokky. haha...I know what u gave before I opened it cus that is my favourite food. Since u want to know what I want then I am kind to say that I want a dress. Mokky, satisfied?

无法形容

如果又再发生，我真的真的会崩溃。我真的没有力了。。很累很累很累了。。。为什么不让我帮呢？

冷

Recently the weather is so cold. Now I not so scard of cold already.

Get use to cold shoulder.

不想长大

不想长大。长大了，有任何问题都没有老师可以问。

Wiped off the tears. Tell my ownself that I can make myself happy again.

Touched

Almost forget need to bring the yellow paper for exam. Thank you to my friend for reminding me. I am glad to have such a caring friend. wish her good luck in exam. ^^

wondering why

Don't like the feeling. what I should do?

十一月

Exam month. When exam is coming, the stress will also be there.

Yesterday almost fainted once. Luckily u were beside me at that time. Just hope I won't feel like fainting at the new month.

If nobody asked me to rest when played badminton, I think I will not stop playing.

Felt sick after took my nap. Just felt that my forehead is hot. Hope I not fall sick.

I know what is it. Just see whether it is true or not.