24.2.12

So fast friday already. Bought 2 books today. Hope I can finish it before next week.

Wanted to update my blog yesterday but at the end forgot.

Was wondering what I want and those questions seems like repeating in my mind everyday. Maybe there still too many doubts.

Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

19.02.12

Didn't sleep well last night. Find it so difficult to hold it on, don't know why. Maybe I can't feel the appreciation.

Actually any present/gift u choose I also like so should be not very hard for you to choose a present/gift. But, I don't know why need me say like only can.

I thought time can help me forget everything but seems like still need a longer time. Very tired already. I not don't want to accept it, but still can't.

For those who want to find me out these few days, sorry that I can't make it.

17.02.12

Wanted to update post since few days ago but at the end didn't. Mood swings for few days, don't know why. I know I can't expect to get something I want but will envy. Recently was wondering if the situation turned it to the other way, how will it be. I admit I still like a little girl hoping for something, hoping for present, hoping for anything just like those fairytales stories. Although I know it won't happen but still will have disappointment whenever I faced some situations like this. Just wondering if you do the same things as others, how will it be.

13.02.12

Today a friend asked me about those photo which u being tagged, I really don't know how to answer. Don't know why don't feel like being asked by people about that. Maybe I just choose to forget it temporary. Everytime got people mentioned about that, I still can feel that my heart is being tear into pieces.

12.02.12

Recently maybe I was the one who don't understand why all these things happened. A tiny or small things also can make u angry. Is it something wrong with me?

I just hope that everything will be getting better. Hoping that 2012 will be a better year unlike what had happened on the 1st 2 months.

Maybe what happened was just another challenge but don't really want it anymore.

Health is getting worse and worse. Hope can recover soon.

Just realised I didn't write new post for quite some time.

What happened on this month which I could remember is 6/2/12 we argue until the next day. I was very down and couldn't understand why that would happen so sudden. on 8/2/12, I was there earlier before the movie so I went to Popular and I remembered that my cousin's bro girlfriend recommended me a book calls men are from mars, women are from venus. I flipped through the table of content 1st then I came across a subtitle called how to avoid arguement then I started to read. Got one phrase which I came across made me felt that it was so true, sometimes what we say may not be the problem but how we say it may be a problem. When not in a good mood, we may tend to say it in a unloving way.

After I read a few pages, I slowly understand that it was true that all these while is because of something or some words which said it in a unloving way which makes me feel hurtful, so I try to understand and forgive.

As February came, got one day which I very afraid of people ask how am I going to celebrate that day. The more I don't want to think about it, the more the ppl ask. I don't like those feeling of hoping something but get disappointement at the end. So, sometimes really hope nobody ask or remind me about that.

I admit I ain't good in some matters but I will try my best to hold it on.